Dear Non-Disabled People:

亲爱的非残疾人：

我是一个残疾人。从小到现在，好多人看我是残疾就想保护我，问我需不需要帮助。有时候我说不需要。有时候即使我回答了好几遍他们还是一问再问。有时候别人根本就不问我需不需要帮助就替我做。很多时候我就认为他们这样做是因为我是残疾，不能做事儿。我不应该每次这样认为。我应该每次问问他们为什么这样做。我会尽量改变这个毛病的，不过这个毛病是很难改的。但是读者们，你们也要改改几件事儿。

每个人做的事就像是一幅画。当要画一幅画的时候，你得需要很多的颜色。不同的颜色就像是不同的身体部分。身体部分们得合作起来做好一件事儿。缺了一部分或一部分做的不好就像是缺了一种颜色或有一种颜色比别的颜色要少。哪部分做的越好，哪种颜色就越多。当你每天练习你的技术的时候，你就在你的颜色盒里面加颜色因为你再把你那不身体部分增加力量。每一个人颜色盒里面颜色的数量都是不一样的。我们残疾人失去了几种颜色，但这不证明我们颜色盒的重量比那些没有残疾人的颜色盒要少呀。我们可以有更多其他的颜色去代替我们失去的颜色然后做那些失去颜色和他们自己的任务。比如那些身体残疾的人，他们缺少的颜色不是最重要的颜色。比如说盲人他们的眼睛视力没有其他人的视力那么好，我就说他们失去的颜色是绿色吧。并不是每幅画都需要绿色的。在他们不需要绿色的时候他们可以轻轻松松用其他的颜色。如果他们需要绿色的时候，他们可以用黄色和蓝色画出绿色。就像比如他们在炒菜的时候，他们得知道什么时候那锅菜炒熟了。一般看见的人会只看看就行了。可是盲人看不见或他们看见的不好。那怎么办呀？就像刚才我说把黄色和蓝色画出绿色，盲人可以用耳朵，鼻子，和炒饭的铲子查查菜是不是熟了。我有脑瘫，说不定我少了几种颜色，但都是不是最重要的颜色。我也能用最重要的颜色弄出一副漂亮的画。

脑子残疾的人缺的颜色可能是一种最重要的颜色，他们画的画会比别人要简单一点，但他们还能画画。有些脑子残疾人颜色盒的重量可能跟别人一样多，只不过他们的每种颜色的重量是不一样的。说不定他们有一种颜色的重量别人的要多。

有的时候我们残疾人得有一个工具帮助我们。我写字写的不快，我一般在课上用电脑打字。盲人看不到，他们用盲杖或盲人狗当他们的眼睛。走路不好的人或不能走路的人用拐杖或轮椅帮他们行动，等等。我们不需要太多的帮助，只要那些工具，我们就没事儿了。其他的东西请你们不要担心。如果我们需要帮助的话，我们会问的。我想让你们就看着我们是怎么自理的。不要害怕。要对我们有信心呀！

有一天我听见了一个盲人说：“看见的人小看盲人是因为他们害怕没有视力的世界。” 这跟其他东西一样，有的非残疾人没有经常见过残疾人，说不定当他们见到了残疾人的时候在想如果他们是残疾的话，那会怎么样？当他们想这个的时候，他们就会害怕。他们就觉得自己会需要帮助，所以他们一见到残疾人就帮助他们。其实如果你想的话，残疾人只是几部分的身体工作的不怎么好，他们可以用其他部分的身体做事儿。世界上没有一个人什么事儿都不能做。如果有的话，那他就是死人。我听妈妈说有一个很高明的科学家是一个有麻痹的人。如果你看看你的周围，你就会看到有好多好多聪明或者和能干的残疾人。

如果你看见别人对残疾人太有帮助的时候，无论你在哪里，请教育教育他们。这样世界慢慢着就知道残疾人其实也能做事儿的。

现在有的国家大多数的孤儿都是残疾。我的国家中国可能有一千万孤儿，98%的孤儿是残疾。这是很严重的！如果我们能帮助中国人和其他国家的人相信残疾人能做事儿的话，那就没有那么多的孩子被抛弃了。

其实，残疾人跟别人一样，因为每个人都是不一样。每个人都用不同的方法去画画。如果用你的真心去看，你就会发现你自己眼睛没有发现的事情。李小龙说过一句话：“即使我们有一双眼睛，大多数的人并不真的是“看到”世界的。”

我希望你们能懂我这一页的博客，如果不懂的话，留下一个评论，我会很努力的给你们再解释一遍！

I have a disability. From when I was little till now, people wanted to protect me and asked me if I needed help when they saw that I have a disability. Sometimes I said no. Sometimes they asked me over and over even though I kept saying no. Sometimes people don't even ask me if I need help before they help me. Often I thought the reason that they did that is because I have a disability and they think I can't do stuff. I shouldn't think that. I should ask them why they did that. I will try my best to change that bad habit. However, readers, you all need to change some habit too.

Every person's work is like a picture. You have to have a lot of different colors to draw a picture. Different colors are like different organs. Organs have to work together to accomplish a task well. If you are missing an organ or one of your organs doesn't work very well, then you lost a color or the color isn't useful to work to their best to draw the picture. Which body part did the best, then that color will have the most. When you practice your technique everyday, you are adding color to your color box since one of your body parts is building strength. We, people with disabilities, may lose some colors, but that doesn't means that our color box weights less than other people. We could use other color to replace the missing color and do their and themselves' job. For people with physical disabilities, the color they are missing in a non-primary color. For example, blind people's sight isn't as good as other people, let me just said that their missing color is green. Not all pictures need green. They can easily use other color when they don't need green. If they do need green, they could use yellow and blue to draw green. For example, blind people need to know if the dish is done when they are cooking. Usually sighted people will just use their eyes to see it. However, blind people can't see or their sight isn't good. What now? Like I just said that they could use yellow and blue to draw green, blind people could use ear, nose, and spatula to tell if the dish is cooked. I have Cerebral Palsy; maybe I lost couple colors, but none of those are primary colors. I could primary colors to draw a beautiful picture too.

People with mental disabilities maybe lost one primary color, their picture will be simpler than other, but they still could draw. Some people with mental disabilities' color box weights the same as other people, only not all the colors are even out. Maybe one of their colors is more than the other people.

Sometimes we need a tool to help us. I don't write fast, usually type during class. Blind people can't see, they use cane and guide dog like their eyes. People have hard time walk or they can't walk use crutches or wheelchair to help them move, and etc. We don't need too much help, just those tool and we are set. You don't need to worry about other things. We will ask for help if we need to. I want to you to see how we become independent. Don't be scared. Have faith in us!

One time I hear a blind person said, "Sighted people underestimate blind people is because they are scare of a world without vision." This is same as other stuff, some non-disabilities people don't see people with disabilities often, and maybe they will imagine how will they live if they have disabilities when they see people disabilities. When they think, they would get scare. They think they need help, so they will help them when they see people with disabilities. However, if you really think about it, only a few body parts of people with disabilities doesn't work properly, they could use other body parts to do tasks. There is no one in the world can't do a single thing. If there are, then they are dead. I hear mom said that there is a brilliant scientist that is paralysis. If you look around, you will see many people with disabilities that are smart and independent.

If you see other people being too helpful to a person with disabilities, no matter where, please education them. Then the world would slowly know that people with disabilities actually could do tasks.

Right now some of the countries' major orphans are disable. My country, China, maybe have a million orphans, 98% of then are disable. That is serious! If we could help Chinese and other countries' citizens believe people with disabilities can do tasks, then maybe not many orphans will be abandon.

Actually, people with disabilities are same as other people, because everyone is different. Everybody draw picture differently. Use your heart to see, you will notice the stuff that your eyes can't see. Bruce Lee had a quote: "Though we possess a pair of eyes, most of us do not really 'see' in the true sense of the word."

I hope you guys could understand my post, if you don't, leave a comment, I will try my best to explain to you.

Is There Are Any Cure?

那有治疗的方法吗？

我有一个很浅的脑瘫，这对我来说也不是一个麻烦。但是，我老是想象如果那儿有没有治疗脑瘫的方法。我以前问过我的阿姨，然后她说我的脑瘫可能是时间上最好的。我同意，但是，我想有残疾。因为这样我就可以成为一个正常人。如果我想做什么，我就能做什么。没有人会笑我的因为我会跟别人一样。

有一次我的朋友说没有有治疗脑瘫的方法，但是是很冒险的。如果成功的话，那你就没有脑瘫了。如果没成功，那你就会死。我想了想，如果我冒这个险，而且很成功的话，那我就是一个正正常常的人。这样我就不会奋斗那么多的东西了。另一方面，我对这个没有问题，我的残疾并没有什么障碍的。所以这根本就不值得。

一天我妈妈说潘小卫，一个我福利院的朋友，他有脊柱侧弯，要有一个手术。那时候我就想：如果他们可以治疗他的残疾，那他们就可以治疗其他的残疾。所以我问了妈妈，她说不行因为我的残疾是在脑子里。我点了点头。那时候我并不懂为什么，不过现在我知道脑瘫是一个不会变好也不会变差的残疾病。

说到这儿，我有一点点反抗。我觉得如果我从小就被训练，然后我就可以是一个正常人了。我妈妈不同意我。但是，这挺有道理的，因为你笑的时候学的会更快，对吧？

现在，我回想了一下。或许有的并不是因为我的残疾。或许是因为别的跟我的残疾一点都没有关系的东西。

I have a mild CP(Cerebral Palsy), it doesn't really bother me. However, I always wonder if there are any cure for CP. I asked this to my nanny, and she said that my CP is probably the most mild in the world. I agree, however, I don't want to have disability. Because that way I can be a normal person. I can do anything that I want. Nobody would laugh at me because I would be same as everybody else.

One time my friend said that in America has a cure for CP, but it's very risk. If it went well, then you don't have CP anymore. If it didn't, then you might die. I thought about it, if I take a chance and it well, then I would be perfectly normal. Then I would not struggle with so many things. On the other side, I am ok with it, my disability didn't really get out of my way. So it's not worse for it.

One day my mom said that Jack, which is my friend in the orphanage and had a scoliosis, is going to have surgery. That times I thought: If they can fix his disability, then they can fix other disability. So I asked mom, and she said no because my disability is on the brain. I nodded. At that time I didn't understand why, but now I know that CP is a disability that isn't going to be better or worst.

Talking about that, I little bit disagree. I think if I been train when I was little, then I could be like a normal person. My mom disagree with me. However, it make sense, because you learned fast when you are younger. Right?

Now, I'm thinking back. Maybe some of it isn't because of my disability. Maybe is other thing that has nothing to do with my disability.    

Accident Happened, No More Second Chance

意外发生了，没有第二个机会了

当我上二年级的时候，也就是2009。有一件事影响了我的人生。

有一次那些许还在洗澡（在福利院很多女孩会一块儿洗澡）。当我正要拿洗发液的时候，我不小心摔倒了而且我的头撞到了厕所地面很尖的角（厕所的地面比浴室的地面要高一点），然后我的头流血了。我哭了因为那时候很疼！所以阿姨带我去医院，然后他们缝了我的头。

有一个阿姨哭了以为她很担心我，但其他的阿姨生我的气。她们怪我不小心，还说我不听话。

等这件事发生以后，阿姨们从来都不会让我干活。在这件事发生之前，当我想干活的时候，阿姨就让我干活。但是，因为这件事发生了，我再也没有得到第二次机会。我很不高兴。每次我问我能不能干活的时候，他们老说不行因为我会摔倒。有时候我会跟阿姨抗议。但是，阿姨的力量比我大得多了，而且，没有一个孩子同意我。我也没有放弃问他们给我第二次机会。我讨厌当别人小看我。每次阿姨说不行，我会说：“竟会小看人。”，有时候她们会说：“不是，是你太逞强了。”然后我就说如果别人能做的事，我就能做。阿姨老是会说我跟别人我不一样。有一次她们竟然把我弄到每个人的前面然后问我是不是跟别人不一样。然后我听见的只是：“是！”然后他们让我回到我座位。我很不高兴。

有时候我会说我又不是一个废物。她们说：“我没说你没用”很好，如果你不让我做事，这证明你觉得我不能做事，也就是说我是一个废物。但我不是一个废物。

因为这个，阿姨老会说我是一个死脑筋。那时候，我觉得这个意思是我很笨，但现在我懂了。我不觉得我很固执。我觉得她们太自以为是了而且她们不像接受她们有时候她们有时候会有错的事实。

时间过去了，我变聪明了。我会一些事做事当她们没看的时候，这样我就不会被她们说了，而且她们从来就没知道。

我老是想，为什么她们就是不能给我一个机会，然后她们可以从这里学一点东西。

When I was second grade, which was in 2009. Something happened that affected my life.

One time the girls were in the shower (in the orphanage a lot of girls will shower together). When I was about to grab shampoo, I accidentally fall and my head hit in the sharp corner of the bathroom floor (the bathroom floor is a little higher than the shower floor) and my head started bleeding.  I cried a little because it hurt! So the nanny took me to the hospital and they sewed my head.

One nanny cried because she was worried about me, but other nannies were mad at me. They blamed me for not being careful and they said I was not well behaved.

After this happened, the nannies would never let me do chores. Before this happened, the nannies would let me do chores whenever I asked. However, because this happened, I never got a second chance. I was very unhappy. Every time I asked to do chores, they always said no because I might fall. Sometimes I would argue with the nannies. However, the nannies were much more powerful than I was, plus, none of the kids would agree with me. Still, I didn't give up asking for a second chance. I hate when people underestimate me. So every time the nannies said no, I would say back, "You just underestimate people!" Sometimes they said, "No, you overexert yourself." Then I would say if other people can do it, then I could too! The nannies would always say I was different than everybody. One time they even took me in front everybody and asked them if I was different from everybody or not. Then all I heard is "YES." Then they let me go back to my seat.  I was so unhappy. 

Sometimes I would say I am not a useless person. They said, "I didn't say you are useless." Well, if you don't let me do things, that means you think I can't do things, which means I am a useless person. Which I am not!Because of this, the nannies would always say I am very stubborn. At that time, I thought it meant I am stupid, but now I understand. I don't think I am very stubborn. I think they are too sure of themselves and they don't accept that sometimes they might be wrong.

Over time, I got smart. I would do something when they are not looking so I wouldn't get in trouble and they never knew.

I was always wondering, why they can’t just give me a chance and learn from it.