Prayer for Ma Weibo

为马伟波祈祷

在8月13号的时候，有一个家庭说他们要收养马伟波啦！这真的是让我很开心呀！这是一个很难的路。之前我是特别着急因为时间不多了。我常常怪我自己因为当我帮她找家的时候，时间就已经不多啦。有时候我怪我自己我自私。我真的不敢相信上帝会在这最后一刻帮她找到一个家庭。上帝真的是太好了！

我觉得马伟波会来到美国的，不过有时候我很害怕，因为当我帮助苏楠楠的时候我失败了。我现在还是每天帮马伟波祈祷，但是收养她的家庭的收养程序现在的速度很慢。我想问问你们帮马伟波祈祷。祈祷她的家庭会在她14岁之前能够把她带到美国来。祈祷当他们收养马伟波的时候一切都会过得很顺利。

如果她没有家的话，不要担心，我这次是不会怪我自己，因为我知道没有什么东西可以阻止上帝的计划。况且，她在福利院的生活也不是特别坏。可是，我还是更希望她有一个家庭。无论怎么样，我会跟的上帝的计划的。

谢谢你们！

On August 13, there was one family said they were going to adopting Ma Weibo! That make me very happy! It has been a tough journey. Before I was super worry about it because the time is running out. I often I would blame myself because by the time I tried to find her a family, time is already running out. Sometime I would blame myself selfish. I really can’t believe that God would find her a family at the last moment. God is so good!

I think Ma Weibo will come to America, but sometime I’m very afraid, because I failed when I tried to help Su Nannan. Right now I will pray for Ma Weibo every night, but the family that is adopting her the adopting process speed is very slow. I want to ask you guys help to pray for Ma Weibo. Pray that her family will bring her to America before she is 14. Pray when they adopting her, everything will go well.

If she doesn’t have a family, don’t worry, this time I would not blame myself, because I know nothing could stop God’s plan. Beside, her life in the orphanage isn’t too bad. However, I still rather her having a family. No matter what, I will follow God’s plan.

Thank you!

My Friend- Ma Weibo

我的朋友-马伟波

我在北京有一个朋友叫马伟波，她这个十月十四日就十四岁了。我很想让她有一个家庭。她的性格跟Amy差不多，活泼可爱，爱说话。她这人特爱体育和美术。她特想要一个家庭。

我每天都会向神祈祷，但是她依然没有家。我开始放弃希望了。忽然，我想起了一个圣经故事，是关于Abraham和神。神曾经答应他的名族会有无数的人，可是到他九十九岁的时候，他还没有孩子。当Abraham准备放弃希望的时候，他的妻子生一个小孩。想到这里，我觉得马伟波会有一个家庭，只不过不是我想要的时间。神在对Abraham一样考验我，但是神的耐心比我要好的好。我知道我现在我不会通过他的考验。但是，我还有一点点希望。所以我觉得，如果我跟大家说的话，说不定有一个人会收养她的。

现在我先问你们帮忙，让马伟波有一个家。我知道我们快没有时间了，但是我们可以把握时间。如果你有任何问题的话，你可以留一个评论。然后我会很乐意的回答你的问题。

I have a friend call Ma Weibo in Beijing, she will be turn 14 this October. I really want her to have a family. Her personality is the same as Amy, have a lot of energy and also cute. She likes PE and Art. She wants a family.

I pray to the Lord every day, but she still doesn’t have a family. I started giving up hope. Suddenly, I remember a Bible story, which is about Abraham and God. God promised him that his nation will be numberless, but when he was ninety nine, he still doesn’t have a kid. When Abraham was about to give up hope, his wife had a baby. Thinking about that, I think Ma Weibo will have a family, it just not the time I want. God is testing me like the way he does to Abraham, although God’s patience is much better than mine. I know now I will not pass the test. However, I still have a little bit of hope. So I think, if I told everybody, maybe there will one person adopt her.

Now I’m asking you guys to help Ma Weibo have a family. I know we don’t have much time, but we can use time wisely. If you have questions, you can leave a comment. Then I will love to answer your questions.

Am I Going to Have Six Sibling or Not

我会有六个兄弟姐妹吗？

我以前跟你们说过我们家会不会有第七个孩子，对吧。我想你们也想知道我们到底有没有在收养一个小孩。现在我就告诉你。

上次我跟你们说过妈妈的目标是福甜。爸爸也很同意妈妈。可是，Amy和我觉得她实在是太安静了。我们的家庭有一点点吵，所以我觉得如果福甜来到我们家的话，她可能会被冷落的。可是，我还是想让她有一个家庭，只不过不是我们的家庭。现在有人已经在收养她了，但我不知道他们弄完了没有。我为她感到很高兴。

有一天，Amy跟我说妈妈跟她看了一个北京盲童小孩的视频。Amy很喜欢那个小孩。我当时很好奇，所以就问了一下妈妈。当我一看她的脸的时候，我就立马认识她了。她以前跟我一块儿住，我那时候很喜欢她。我觉得她很可爱，我好想收养她呀。

可是，那时候妈妈还是很想收养福甜。爸爸跟妈妈一样。Amy和我想收养那个北京福利院的小孩。后来我们问了问Lucy，她说福甜。所以我们好像会收养她的。

又有一天，Amy跟我说福甜有家了。所以当时我们就想那我们就可以收养那个北京市儿童福利院的小孩。可是，妈妈说我们不会收养的。我们弄完收养了，所以我不会有六个兄弟姐妹，我会有五个。

Before I wrote about if we were going have the seventh kid or not, right? I guess you might want to know if we adopt one more kid or not. Well, right now I’m going to tell you.

Last time I wrote that mom’s goal is Futian. Dad also agree with mom. However, Amy and I thought she is just too quiet. Our family is quiet loud, so I thought if Futian came to our family, she might be left out. However, I still want her to have a family,just not ours. Now there is someone adopting her, but I don’t know if they finish or not. I was very happy for her.

One day, Amy told me that mom show her a video of a Beijing blind girl. Amy like that kid. I was very curious, so I askedmom. When I saw her face, I recognized her immediately. She lived with me before, I liked her very much at the time. I thought she was very cute, I really wanted to her adopt her.

However, mom still wanted to adopt Futian. So does Dad. Amy and I wanted to adopt the girl from Beijing orphanage. Later we ask Lucy, she said Futian. So looked like we were going to adopt her.

Another day, Amy told me that Futian had a family. So we thought we could adopt the girl from Beijing orphanage. However, mom said no. We are done with adoption, so I am not going have six siblings, I’m going to have five.

Having No Heart

没有一颗心

在2015年3月9日，我们的一只狗去死了。那天下午妈妈说：“我们明天会把它弄睡觉的姿态。”后来我们晚上接上了一个电话，兽医就说她们那晚可以就来。

等他们来了，爸爸妈妈要我们跟她说再见。等我们说再见了候，Lucy和Amy哭了。那时候我并没有哭，我在读一个博客。我也没有感觉到什么。等那只狗走了，所有家里的人都哭了，所有家里的人都很伤心。但是，我却没有哭，我也没有感觉到什么。我不明白为什么我什么都感觉不到。

晚上我问妈妈我为什么，妈妈说可能我没其他家里的人跟那只狗那么的近吧。那时候我就很伤心。我去了我的房间，痛痛快快的打了我自己。我很生气。我对自己说：“你怎么那么没心呀！”那时候我觉得我这人根本就不值得生活在世上。别人为了那只狗那么的伤心，可我就什么感觉不到。我真的很不想活在这世上了。

后来Amy发现我打了我自己，然后告诉了妈妈。等妈妈跟我说晚安的时候她问我我为什么对自己不高兴。我告诉了她原因。她后来解释了那是因为我是在保护我的心。那时候我就想Lucy和Amy的过去比我的过去要更狠。妈妈说那是因为我害怕去爱别人，害怕会失去他们，所以我不爱他们。那时候我就想我是个胆小鬼。之后她就说即使是生活在好父母的孩子也会害怕的。可她说什么我都不相信。在中国有那么的人喜欢我，可我这人从来都没有为别人哭过，我只为自己哭过。后来我就哭了好几了分钟。

第二天我还是在想这件事情。我想了又想，我觉得我这人不应该见人。我这人的心那么的小，那么的黑。我这人就是没有一个善良的心！我那时候怎么知道我这十五年是怎么活的。前几个星期我的老阿姨和我们邻居的一只狗去死了，我也什么都没有感觉到。

我老是有一个问题：为什么我真没有一颗心的人能让那么多的喜欢我，爱我。我从来都不会知道。

On March 9^th, 2015, one of our dogs passed away. That afternoon mom said, “Tomorrow we will put her to sleep.” Then at night we got a phone call, the vet said they could come that night.

When they came, mom and dad told us to said good bye to her. After we said goodbye to her, Lucy and Amy started to cry. I didn’t cry at the time, I was reading a blog. I didn’t feel anything. When the dog was gone, every family member cried, everyone was sad. However, I didn’t cry, I didn’t felt anything. I didn’t understand why I didn’t feel anything.

At night I asked mom why, mom said maybe because I was not as close to the dogs as others. I was very sad. I went to my room, frankly hit myself. I was super mad. I told myself, “why you don’t have a heart?!” I thought I don’t have the right to live on Earth. Other people were very sad for that dog, but I didn’t feel anything. I really didn’t want to live on Earth.

Later Amy saw I hit myself and told mom. When mom said goodnight to me she asked me why I wasn’t happy with myself. I told her the reason. Later she explained to me, it’s because I was protecting my heart. I thought about that Lucy and Amy’s past is much worse than me. Mom said it’s because I am afraid to love other people, afraid I could lose them. That made me think I’m coward, then she said that even the kids grew up with good parents also would be afraid. However, I just doesn’t believe it. In China many people like me, but I never cried for other people. I just cried for myself. Later I cried for couple minutes.

Second day I still thought about it. I kept thinking, I thought I shouldn’t meet people. My heart is so small, so black. I don’t have a kind heart! How did I live fifteen years! In the last couple of weeks my Great-great Aunt and one of our neighbor’s dog died, and I didn’t feel anything.

I have a question: Why does everybody like me or love me even though I don’t have any heart? I never know.

Steal Children's Heart

偷小孩的心

在美国我听过有时候当那些孤儿要被收养的时候，那些大人会告诉他们一些可怕的事儿，然后那些小孩就没有被收养因为他们很害怕。在中国我听说过这个故事，我觉得他们不应该做这个。不过，那时候我不怎么相信因为后来我见了那个人而且我觉得她这人很好。她不是大人。后来她告诉我她做了这个是因为她从一个电影看的。之后我就没怎么想这件事儿了。

今年我听到了很多的故事儿。因为我现在更会为孤儿担心了，我就开始生气了。我就是不懂，为什么那些大人会这样？人家小孩又没有找你惹他们的。难道他们就那么讨厌那些小孩儿嘛？那些小孩会有家了，所以她们不会再见到那些小孩了。为什么他们 非把那些小孩弄得那么的害怕？为什么他们就是不能给那些小孩一个好生活?如果他们不喜欢照顾那些小孩的话，那他们根本就不用当阿姨了。

有的时候那些阿姨老师骂他们。时间过久了，那些小孩就开始相信他们不应该活在这个世界。他们是很坏的小孩。没有一个人会爱护他们的。说到了这儿就会让我很伤心。那些小孩不应该信这些事情。他们应该相信他们是有多么的好。他们不应该放弃他们自己。为什么那些大人对他们那么坏。是，他们是孤儿，可是这又说了什么？这并没有说他们是坏人。这并没有说他们不会成为一些伟大或一个好人。这只是说了他们的父母抛弃了他们。他们的身世根本就没有证明他们有什么人格。

如果我们收养更多的小孩，那更少的小孩不会放弃自己。很多的小孩会知道自己有多么的棒。收养是帮助他们的开始。

In American I heard sometimes when kids were going to beadopted, some adult told them scare stuff, then these kids didn’t get adopt because they were super scared. In China I heard those story, I thought they shouldn’t have done that. However, at that time I didn’t believe because later I met that person and I thought she was a really good person. She wasn’t adult. Later she told me she did that because she saw from a movie. After that I didn’t think about so much.

This years I heard many stories. Since I care more about orphans, I started got mad. I just don’t understand, why those adult would do that? Those kids did nothing to you. Do they hate the kids that much? Those kids would have family, so they would not see those kids again. Why they made them so scared? Why they just can’t give them a good life? If they doesn’t like to take care of the kids, then they simply don’t have to be nannies.

Sometimes those nannies would scold them. As time go by, those kids started believe they shouldn’t live in the world. They are bad kids. Nobody would love them. Talk about that it start made me sad. Those kids shouldn’t believe those stuff. They should believe how awesome they are. They shouldn’t give up on them. Why those adults treat them so bad. Yes, they are orphans, but what did that say? It didn’t say they are bad people. It didn’t say they will not be amazing or good person. It just said their parents abandon them. Their life experience didn’t prove what kind of personality they will have.

If we adopt more children, then less children wouldn’t not give up on themselves. More children would know how awesome they are. Adopting is starting of helping them.

Change the House

改变家里

对于美国马里兰州来说，我们的房子是很小的。一般的房子都是我们的两倍。我们现在的房子住这五个人和一只狗。我们每天都过着自由自在，高高兴兴。有一次，爸爸妈妈跟我说我们的地下室要重新弄一弄。当时我觉得我们的地下室一点问题都没有，但是妈妈说她觉得我们的地下室很乱。我想：“那我们就直接可以起来整理整理呀。我们根本就不需要花那么多的钱。”

爸爸妈妈用了一千多美元来整理整理我们的地下室。我们的地下室的确是比以前要整齐了很多。可是，每次当爸爸妈妈花那么多钱的时候都让我想起：我们真的需要吗？我觉得我们还可以坚持坚持。有时候我觉得我们可以用那么多的钱去收养一个小孩或是帮助一个孤儿找到家庭。我不知道为什么我对孤儿那么有兴趣或我那么的关心孤儿。但是，我就是帮助不了我自己，每次我都会想这个。有时候我看看我们家里有那么多的东西，我就觉得我们可以把这些卖了然后帮助一些孤儿。

钱不是一个好的也不是坏的。你有多少钱也不会决定你是好人或是坏人。你怎么花钱会决定你的人格。我决定将来把我大部分的钱帮助孤儿。你想怎么样，那就是你的事儿了。我希望更多的人帮助更多的孤儿。

To Maryland, our house is very small. Usually the other house is twice as ours. Right now our house have 5 people and one dog. Every day we live happily and freely. One time. Mom and dad said to me that our basement need to fix. I thought our basement doesn’t have any problem, but mom said she thought our basement was very mess. I thought, “Then we can just get up and clean. We don’t need to spend that much money at all.”

Mom and dad used more than $1000 to clean our basement. Our basement do look cleaner. However, every times when mom and dad use that much money it made me think: Do we need it? I think we still can live without it. Sometimes I think we could use that much money to adopt a kid or help an orphan to find a family. I don’t know why I’m interesting so much to orphans or care so much about them. However, I just couldn’t help myself, every times I will think about this. Sometimes I look around my house have so much stuff, I think we could sell it and then help some orphans.

Money isn’t a good or bad thing. How much money you have doesn’t prove if you are a good person or a bad person. How you spent your money will decide on your personality. I deicide that in the future I will use most of money to help orphans. What you want, it’s on you. I hope more people will help more orphans.

Eighth Grade

八年级

在2014年我上了八年级。一开始的时候我很不高兴因为我在课上老是不懂。我的老师一开始不怎么懂我。我那时候好不高兴。不过，我这人很幸运。我问了问我七年级的老师帮助，然后我就懂了。时间过去了，我的老师开始懂得我了。我也开始喜欢我的老师了。渐渐的我开始向我的八年级的老师问帮助了。我开始喜欢我的课程了。

八年级也是最难的。我有两节跳舞课，一个大提琴，一个吉他，一个做饭和缝东西的，和体育。今年是我第一次学大提琴。我一开始很高兴。去年夏天我试了试小提琴，但是我觉得很难因为我老是弄不住。我那时候觉得大提琴比较更简单，所以我就试了试大提琴，但是大提琴也不是很简单。很多的时候我很有问题，现在我终于知道怎么解决这些问题了。说实话，我不怎么喜欢大提琴，我明年只想学木琴。

跳舞开始很难，但是现在简单了一些。吉他可是最无聊的一节课了。我最喜欢做饭了！我也很喜欢缝东西，但是我们用的是机器，而且不知道怎么回事儿，每次我用的时候那个机器都会出事儿。真不知道为什么！难道那个机器那么讨厌我吗？

当然了，八年级也有好的地方。我每个星期都能见到我七年级的老师。我每天都能见到我在美国学校最好的朋友。有的八年级的老师也挺好玩的。其中最好玩的就是我的历史老师，他每天都笑笑笑。我每天都在他课里笑。真是太好了。

虽然八年级没有七年级那么好，但是我还是挺喜欢八年级的。现在是五月了，还有几个星期我们就要放暑假了。我会好舍不得Severna Park中学的。

In 2014 I went to eighth grade. At first I was very unhappy because I always don’t understand in classes. My teachers at first couldn’t understand me. I was very unhappy at the time. However, I was very lucky. I asked my seventh grade teachers’ help. Then I understand it. As time goes by, my teachers started understand me. I also started like my teachers. Slowly I started asked help to my eighth grade. I started like my classes.

Eighth also is the hardest. I have two dance classes, one cello, one guitar, one cooking and sewing, and PE. This year is my first year learning cello. At first I was very happy. Last summer I tried violin, but I thought it was very hard because I couldn’t hold it. I thought cello would be easier, so I tried cello, but cello was easy. Many times I had problem with it, now I finally know how to solve the problem. Tell you the truth, I don’t like cello so much, next year I just want to learn xylophone.

Dance class was hard at first, but now it’s easier. Guitar is the most boring class. I like cooking the best! I like sewing too, but we used machine, and for some reason, every times when I use it will always has problem. Don’t know why! Wasn’t the machine hated me that much?

Of course, eighth grade had good part. Every week I could see my seventh grade teachers. Every day I could see my best friend in school. Some of the eighth teachers are pretty funny. The funniest is my history teacher, every day he would laugh and laugh. Every day I would laugh in his class. It’s so nice.

Even though eighth grade isn’t as good as seventh grade, but I still like eighth grade. Right now is May, few weeks we will have summer vacation. I will miss SPMS.