Does She Really My Friend?

她真的是我的朋友吗？

我有一个朋友在我中国的班里。她名字叫刘雨晴。我在清河一小的最后一天和周四－快乐的一天提到过她。但是，我并没有让你们去了解她。

她可能是唯一的女孩对我像个朋友。她可是我班里女生最好的朋友。那些男生似乎比那些女生对我要好一点。但是，我不会把刘雨晴说成我最好的朋友。甚至我都不决定她是不是我的朋友。

她跟我中国的其他同学一样，他们都在开始之前对我很不好。有的学生比其他的学生要对我好的早一些。就像我说的，男生比那些女生对我好的要早一些。有的男生可能是我的朋友。有时候我喜欢跟他们玩。

刘雨晴在三年级的时候开始对我好了。有时候她替我说话。我很感激。我帮助了她数学作业。我们俩关系到挺好的。

在三年级之前，每次当我们去上面让老师判作业的时候，她会站在那儿而且跟她朋友说话。当我来的时候，她说：“离我八米远”我很不高兴。但是，当她开始对我好的时候，我就原谅她了。当别人突然对我好的时候，我一般都是原谅他们。我一般不会问为什么他们突然对我好。我觉得我应该感激一下。

当我来到美国的时候，我被允许给中国打电话。所以我就给刘雨晴打电话。她对这一点点凶。她命令我需要先给她打电话而且她的电话时间必须是最长的。我对这个没有问题，但我告诉她她不应该对我这样，因为我觉得我不应该让他命令我来对来去的。但是，她说她是将而且我必须要听她的因为她比我要“强”。（她给我解释了一下通过她说如果我被坏人抓住了，她会在我死之前救我的。如果他被坏人抓到了，我不能就她。）然后她命令我她是我最好的朋友，我立马就反对她。她不能对我这样。她老是用那种“我比你好”的态度对我。我不喜欢。

有时候如果我在说关于我其他的朋友，她很吃醋。她不想让我说这个。当我就想：你不能控制我想什么，行吗？还是，有时候当我给她打电话的时候，她会看电视。我觉得这是很侮辱的！我告诉她如果她再这样，那我就挂了。但是，她好像从来都没听我的。

有一次我在学校考了一个很不好的成绩然后告诉她了。她的答案就是如果是她的话，她会得100的。我知道这不是事实，但我什么也没说。然后另一个时候我在数学课得到了最高的分数。她的回答就是她不相信我能得到最高的分数。她老是把我看得很低。我不喜欢！她应该说一些更好听的话！

那时候我就想：她真的是我朋友吗？我不知道为什么她那样的对待我。或许是因为我对她不好吧。所以我就开始对她更好一点。但是，什么都没改变。

I had a friend in my class in China. Her name is Liu Yuqing. I mentioned her in Last Day In Qinghe#1 and Thursday- Happy Day. However, I didn't mention her enough to let you understand her.

She is probably the only girl who treated me like a friend. She probably was the best friend out of my classmates who are girls. The boys seemed to treat me nicer than the girls in my class. However, I would not consider Liu Yuqing my best friend. In fact, I not sure if she was my friend.

She was like my other classmates in China, who treated me poorly at the beginning. Some of the students started treating me nice earlier than others. Like I said, the boys treated me nice earlier than the girls. Some of the boys probably were my friends. I liked to play with them sometimes.

Liu Yuqing started treating me nice in third grade. Sometimes she spoke up for me too. I really appreciated it. I helped her with math homework. We got along pretty good.

Before third grade, every time when we went up to let the teacher grade our work, she usually stood and talked with her friend. When I came up, she said, "eight meters away from me." I was really unhappy. However, when she started being nice to me, I forgave her. Usually when people suddenly treat me nice, I just forgive them. I usually don't asked why they suddenly treat me nice. I think I should be thankful for it.

When I came to America, I was allowed to make phone calls to China. So I call Liu Yuqing. She was a little bit bossy. She demanded that I need to talk to her first and talk to her the longest. I was okay with it, but then I told her that she shouldn't treat me like that, because I thought that I shouldn't let her push me around. However, she said she is the boss and I need to listen to her because she is "stronger" than me. (She explained being stronger by saying that if I got caught by a bad guy, she could rescue me before I'm dead. If she got caught, I couldn't save her.) Then she demanded that she was my best friend. I opposed right away. She can't treat me like that. She always treated me like she was better than me. I don't like that!

Sometimes if I talked about some of my other friends, she was jealous. She didn't want me to talk about it. At that time I thought, you can't control what I'm thinking, ok? Also, sometimes when I called her, she would watch TV. I thought that's totally rude! I told her that if she did that again, then I would hang up. However, she seemed to never listen to me.

One time I got a bad grade in school and I told her. Her answer was that if it was her, then she would have gotten 100. I knew that wasn't true, but I didn't say anything. Then another time I told her that I got the highest grade in math. Her answer was like she didn't believe that I could get the highest grade. She always had low exceptions of me. I didn't like that. She should say something nicer than that!

At that time I was thinking, is she really my friend? I didn't know why she would treat me like that. Maybe because I treated her poorly. So I started treating her nicer. However, nothing changed.