We have been receiving punishments as a group many times in the orphanage, and often we don’t know what we did wrong. Often times the whole group would get punished because a few kids messed up.
One time four or five nannies took 20 of us to a big inside area to play after supper. After a short while, I saw two of the oldest boys get into a fight and two nannies were trying to stop them. I don’t know how long it had been going on, but after watching a minute, one of the nannies ran out of patience and ordered all of us to stop playing and go to the TV room to watch TV because of the fight between the two boys.
One night a group of kids, who were aged 8-13, were supposed to take medicines in a powdered form. They were told to go to another room and get water from a dispenser to dilute their medicines. A boy, who often got in trouble, put his medicine into the water dispenser and a couple of kids copied him. A nanny figured out what was going on ordered all of the kids in that group to go to bed right away, which was 30-60 minutes earlier than our usual bedtimes.
During a winter evening, some kids were playing outside while I was told to stay inside and watch because of my disability. Though I disagreed, I still obeyed them. An hour later, a small group of kids, who were far from where other kids were playing, were goofing off. A nanny went out and checked what was going on. The next thing I knew we were being sent back inside because she had fallen and being told to stand for a few minutes. While we were standing, another nanny blamed all 20-30 of us for the fall and told us we had ruined the wonderful treatments that the injured nanny had given us. For the rest of evening, the nannies told us to be silent and we were sent to bed not long after that.
We often were forced to watching TV and sit there and be quiet for long periods of time during the first three years of my life in the orphanage. Sometimes we couldn’t stay silent and would start talking. One morning we were talking for about an hour and it was time for the nannies to go off work and another crew of nannies to come in. They talked about our misbehavior, and then a nanny turns off the TV and pulls a chair in front of us and criticized, "I often give fair treatments, but you have taken advantage of me and bullied me." Then she just sat there and ordered us to be silent while she shed tears. I sat there and was puzzled: why does she need to make such big fuss about it. What wonderful treatment had they given us that we should feel so thankful? What did we do that deserved an hour of silence or ruin the wonderful treatment? Are we that horrible? Or are they just trying to make themselves look good?
You will think this way of educated kids would be the same on the positive behavior. It was similar, except it was much more rare. Often, the rewards for positive behavior only went to individuals. They would go off somewhere and play with no nannies around while others had to do the same boring things. Still, as a whole, we often got the message that we weren’t good kids, and sometimes they held up one or two kids as an example of a good kid in their eyes. These were the kids who very rarely rebelled against them. I can hardly remember a time when the nannies praised us as a group and said that we were wonderful kids.
I wonder if the nannies had any idea of what they had signed up for. I think they thought that watching kids would be a very easy job. I don't think they were prepared with a lot of patience. A lot of nannies either were texting or talking to other nannies when they supposed to be paying attention to us. Sometimes they had a bit more patience, but it only lasted about an hour. It's a shame that while all these problems were going on, a sign in front of our orphanage says, "Everything is for the children. The children come first."
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Things That Shoudn't be Done to Orphans and Newly Adopted Kids
不应该对孤儿和有新家的孩子做的事儿
不应该对孤儿做的事儿：
1. “叫我妈妈”或“叫她妈妈”
有一次在新年的时候，我们孩子们给阿姨和福利院办公室的阿姨表演节目。我们那时候有两个院长，一男一女。那个男的院长是新的。我那时候觉得院长叔叔好像要接替院长阿姨，但我也不太清楚。我们区长李阿姨告诉我们一会等院长阿姨和院长叔叔来的时候，我们孩子们得跟他们说：“院长妈妈新年好，院长爸爸新年好！” 我那时候没听。我反而叫他们阿姨和叔叔。他们又不是我的爸爸妈妈，我为什么要叫他们爸爸妈妈？而且他们又不跟我说话，说不定他们还不认识我呢！真正的爸爸妈妈是跟你说话的也认识你的，他们会每天看你问你好。我就是觉得阿姨们根本就没有权利随随便便告诉孤儿们叫别人爸爸妈妈。阿姨们应该让孤儿自己来做主。我在福利院四年只管两个阿姨叫过妈妈。这两个阿姨我都很喜欢。一个阿姨叫我叫她的，另一个阿姨是我问她的。现在我不叫她们妈妈了因为我有了美国“真正”妈妈，况且自从我离开了我寄养家庭之后，让我叫别人妈妈倒是挺有点变扭的。
2. “你应该怪你的父母把你跟扔了，他们那么狠！”
我觉得很少的孤儿在中国知道他们的父母放弃他们的原因。是的，他们有原因生他们亲生父母的气。但是，大人的任务应该是教孩子们怎么原谅他们的亲生父母。鼓励孩子们试着想想他们亲生父母选择的原因，然后长大后试着停止父母抛弃孩子。我觉得我亲生父母抛弃我的原因是因为我有残疾。他们觉得医生得治我，不然我就没有好生活，但他们没钱。我是气他们没有残疾人能做什么事儿的信心。但是现在也是时间让我自己原谅他们。我长大会给全世界看不管你有多残疾，只要你信心，只要你努力去做而且不放弃，那你做任何你想做的事儿，只是我们做的方法跟你们不一样而已。以后我会写一个关于残疾人的事儿。
3. “怪不得你爸妈扔了你”
有时候当孤儿做了让阿姨们或其他人生气的事儿，他们就会骂他们。有的时候大人就会用这句话骂他们。这件事儿从来都没有发生在我身上。但是，孤儿一般都是在他们小婴儿的时候被抛弃的。小婴儿能做什么严重的事儿让他们值得被抛弃？一件事儿都没有！孤儿跟其他人一样，只是他们的父母放弃了他们。而且根本就不是他们的错！
不应该对最近被收养的孩子做的事儿：
1. “你可真幸运呀！”
我不知道为什么别人会对最近被收养的孩子说这个。或许他们的意思是对于孤儿来说，被收养比一生都要当孤儿要好。这个想法我倒是同意。但或许你们不知道，让孩子们放弃一切东西去跟一个陌生人生活是很难的事情。如果加上他们陌生人说不同的语言就跟难了！这是叫幸运吗？孤儿一开始就不幸运。每个孩子一开始都应该有一个美好的家的。孤儿被收养是叫她们的生活可能会更好一些，根本就不是幸运。如果你们再这样说的话，那我想让你们回答一个问题：你愿意跟他们换生活吗？
2. “你为什么不爱你家人呀？”
a. 你会立马爱你上第一次见过的大人吗？如果你的答案是是的话，那在你要放弃你的一切的时候去跟一个陌生家庭生活，你会立马爱上他们吗？如果她们说不同的语言，你会立马爱上他们吗？你的答案还是是吗？如果不是的话，那请你们就不要问一个刚有新家的孩子这个问题。新家的时间对有些孤儿是短的，有些孤儿是长的。我的意思就是有些孩子融入家庭是挺快的。有些孩子融入家庭是挺慢的。你要给他们时间。所以如果你没有看到他们给他们的父母表现得他们的爱，那请不要问这个问题。当然，有时如果你问他们为什么没有想过他们的家人或是相同的问题，那请你也不要问。当别人问我这些问题的时候，我感到不舒服，我觉得我不是好人因为我不爱我新家人。我想问有新家的孩子这些问题的人应该不是会想给他们这样的感受吧。你可以试试告诉有新家的孩子他们的父母有多爱他们，但也不要太多。这样会让他们觉得很内疚。
b. 有时候父母会在他们第一收养的孩子融入家庭的时候再收养孩子。一般在父母收养很多孩子的时候，孩子们以前不知道对方。而且一般的时候收养哪个孩子不是那个已经被收养孩子的选择，所以第一个孩子不一定会立马爱上那个要走进他家庭的孩子。在这种情况，你也不能问这个问题。
我想让你们读完的时候分享给别人，尤其是让有新家的孩子烦的事儿。这两件事儿有时候对孤儿来说是很大的压力。如果他们不没压力的话，那说不定他们会融入家庭融入得更快。
Things That Irritate Orphans:
1. "Call me mom" or "Call her mom"
In 2012 during the Lunar New Year, we the kids performed show to the nannies and the orphanage office staff. At that time we have two orphanage directors, a man and a women. The man director was new. I believed that the women director was going to be replaced by the man director, but I am not sure. Our supervisor Nanny Li told us when the orphanage directors come in, we the kids need to say, "Happy New Year director mom, Happy New Year director dad!" I didn't listen. I called them aunt and uncle instead, which in China, is the same thing as ma'am and sir in America. They weren't my mom and dad, why should I call them mom and dad? Beside they never talked to me, maybe they don't even know me! Real mom and dad talked to you and know you, they will see you everyday and ask how are you doing. I just think that the nannies don't have any right to just tell orphans to call other people mom and dad. The nannies should let the orphans decides. I lived in the orphanage four years and I only call two nannies mom. I like both of them a lot. One of the told me to call her mom, I ask the other nanny to call her mom. Now I didn't call them mom anymore because I have "real" America mom, beside ever since I left my foster family, call other people mom was just awkward to me.
2. "You should blame your parents for they abandon you, what a cruel person they are!"
I think very few orphans in China know the reasons that their parents abandon them. Yes, they have the right to be mad at their biological parents. However, adult's job should be to teach the kids how to forgive their biological parents. Encourage them to try to think the reasons that their parents abandoned them, and later try to stop parents to abandon children when they grow up. I think the reason that my biological parents abandon me is that I have a disability. They thought that I have to be fixed by doctors, or I won't have a good life, but they didn't have money. I am mad that they don't have confidence that people with disability can do stuff. Now is the time for me to forgive them. When I grow up, I will show the whole world that no matter how disable you are, if you have confidence, if you work hard and not give up, then you can do anything you want to do. Is just that the way that we do stuff might be different than yours. Later I will write a post about people with disability.
3. "No wonder that you parents abandon you."
Sometimes when the orphans did something that made the nannies or other people mad, they will scold them. Sometimes the adults will use this sentence to scold them. This had never happen to me. However, orphans usually are being abandoned when they are infants. What big mistake can an infant do to deserve to be abandoned? Not a single thing! Orphans are same as everybody else, only their parents abandon them. And is just not their fault!
Things That Shouldn't be Done to Newly Adopted Kids:
1. "You are so lucky!"
I don't know why people would say that to a newly adopted kid. Maybe they mean that for orphans, it's better for them to be adopted than to be an orphan all life long. I agree with that. However, maybe you guys don't know that tell the kids to give up all the things and to live with strangers is very hard. It will be harder if the parents speak a different language! Is that called lucky? Orphans aren't lucky to begin with. Every kid should start with a love family. Orphans being adopted are called that their life might be better, but totally not lucky. If you continue to say this, then I want you to answer me a question: Would you trade life with them?
2. "Why you don't love your family?"
a. Will you fall in love immediately with an adult that you just met? If the answer is yes, then would you love the stranger family immediately when you have to give up all everything to live with them? If they speak different language, would you love them immediately? Is your answer still yes? If is not, then please don't ask that question to a newly adopted kids. A period of new family to some orphans are short, to some are long. What I mean is that some kids get use to the family fast. Some kids get use to the family slow. You have to give them time. So if you didn't see them show their love to their parents, then please don't ask that question. Of course, if sometimes you ask them why they never miss or think about their family or similar question, then don't ask that either. When people ask me this question, I felt uncomfortable; I thought I wasn't a good person because I don't love my new family. I think the people who ask newly adopted kids these questions doesn't want them to feel that way, right? You can try to tell the newly adopted kids how much their parents love them, but not too much. Because then it was made them feel guilty.
b. Sometime parents will adopted another kid during their first adopted kid's adjustment to the family. Usually when parents adopted many kids, the kids didn't know each other before they got adopted. Beside usually it's not the kid who got adopted to choose whom should they adopted. So the adopted kids might not fell in love with the kid who is going to enter his/her family. In this situation, you can't ask those questions that I talked about either.
I want you guys to share to other people when you finished read this, especially about things that shouldn't be done to the newly adopted kids. These two things sometimes are pressure to them. If they don't have that pressure, then maybe they will get use to the family quicker.
不应该对孤儿做的事儿：
1. “叫我妈妈”或“叫她妈妈”
有一次在新年的时候，我们孩子们给阿姨和福利院办公室的阿姨表演节目。我们那时候有两个院长，一男一女。那个男的院长是新的。我那时候觉得院长叔叔好像要接替院长阿姨，但我也不太清楚。我们区长李阿姨告诉我们一会等院长阿姨和院长叔叔来的时候，我们孩子们得跟他们说：“院长妈妈新年好，院长爸爸新年好！” 我那时候没听。我反而叫他们阿姨和叔叔。他们又不是我的爸爸妈妈，我为什么要叫他们爸爸妈妈？而且他们又不跟我说话，说不定他们还不认识我呢！真正的爸爸妈妈是跟你说话的也认识你的，他们会每天看你问你好。我就是觉得阿姨们根本就没有权利随随便便告诉孤儿们叫别人爸爸妈妈。阿姨们应该让孤儿自己来做主。我在福利院四年只管两个阿姨叫过妈妈。这两个阿姨我都很喜欢。一个阿姨叫我叫她的，另一个阿姨是我问她的。现在我不叫她们妈妈了因为我有了美国“真正”妈妈，况且自从我离开了我寄养家庭之后，让我叫别人妈妈倒是挺有点变扭的。
2. “你应该怪你的父母把你跟扔了，他们那么狠！”
我觉得很少的孤儿在中国知道他们的父母放弃他们的原因。是的，他们有原因生他们亲生父母的气。但是，大人的任务应该是教孩子们怎么原谅他们的亲生父母。鼓励孩子们试着想想他们亲生父母选择的原因，然后长大后试着停止父母抛弃孩子。我觉得我亲生父母抛弃我的原因是因为我有残疾。他们觉得医生得治我，不然我就没有好生活，但他们没钱。我是气他们没有残疾人能做什么事儿的信心。但是现在也是时间让我自己原谅他们。我长大会给全世界看不管你有多残疾，只要你信心，只要你努力去做而且不放弃，那你做任何你想做的事儿，只是我们做的方法跟你们不一样而已。以后我会写一个关于残疾人的事儿。
3. “怪不得你爸妈扔了你”
有时候当孤儿做了让阿姨们或其他人生气的事儿，他们就会骂他们。有的时候大人就会用这句话骂他们。这件事儿从来都没有发生在我身上。但是，孤儿一般都是在他们小婴儿的时候被抛弃的。小婴儿能做什么严重的事儿让他们值得被抛弃？一件事儿都没有！孤儿跟其他人一样，只是他们的父母放弃了他们。而且根本就不是他们的错！
不应该对最近被收养的孩子做的事儿：
1. “你可真幸运呀！”
我不知道为什么别人会对最近被收养的孩子说这个。或许他们的意思是对于孤儿来说，被收养比一生都要当孤儿要好。这个想法我倒是同意。但或许你们不知道，让孩子们放弃一切东西去跟一个陌生人生活是很难的事情。如果加上他们陌生人说不同的语言就跟难了！这是叫幸运吗？孤儿一开始就不幸运。每个孩子一开始都应该有一个美好的家的。孤儿被收养是叫她们的生活可能会更好一些，根本就不是幸运。如果你们再这样说的话，那我想让你们回答一个问题：你愿意跟他们换生活吗？
2. “你为什么不爱你家人呀？”
a. 你会立马爱你上第一次见过的大人吗？如果你的答案是是的话，那在你要放弃你的一切的时候去跟一个陌生家庭生活，你会立马爱上他们吗？如果她们说不同的语言，你会立马爱上他们吗？你的答案还是是吗？如果不是的话，那请你们就不要问一个刚有新家的孩子这个问题。新家的时间对有些孤儿是短的，有些孤儿是长的。我的意思就是有些孩子融入家庭是挺快的。有些孩子融入家庭是挺慢的。你要给他们时间。所以如果你没有看到他们给他们的父母表现得他们的爱，那请不要问这个问题。当然，有时如果你问他们为什么没有想过他们的家人或是相同的问题，那请你也不要问。当别人问我这些问题的时候，我感到不舒服，我觉得我不是好人因为我不爱我新家人。我想问有新家的孩子这些问题的人应该不是会想给他们这样的感受吧。你可以试试告诉有新家的孩子他们的父母有多爱他们，但也不要太多。这样会让他们觉得很内疚。
b. 有时候父母会在他们第一收养的孩子融入家庭的时候再收养孩子。一般在父母收养很多孩子的时候，孩子们以前不知道对方。而且一般的时候收养哪个孩子不是那个已经被收养孩子的选择，所以第一个孩子不一定会立马爱上那个要走进他家庭的孩子。在这种情况，你也不能问这个问题。
我想让你们读完的时候分享给别人，尤其是让有新家的孩子烦的事儿。这两件事儿有时候对孤儿来说是很大的压力。如果他们不没压力的话，那说不定他们会融入家庭融入得更快。
Things That Irritate Orphans:
1. "Call me mom" or "Call her mom"
In 2012 during the Lunar New Year, we the kids performed show to the nannies and the orphanage office staff. At that time we have two orphanage directors, a man and a women. The man director was new. I believed that the women director was going to be replaced by the man director, but I am not sure. Our supervisor Nanny Li told us when the orphanage directors come in, we the kids need to say, "Happy New Year director mom, Happy New Year director dad!" I didn't listen. I called them aunt and uncle instead, which in China, is the same thing as ma'am and sir in America. They weren't my mom and dad, why should I call them mom and dad? Beside they never talked to me, maybe they don't even know me! Real mom and dad talked to you and know you, they will see you everyday and ask how are you doing. I just think that the nannies don't have any right to just tell orphans to call other people mom and dad. The nannies should let the orphans decides. I lived in the orphanage four years and I only call two nannies mom. I like both of them a lot. One of the told me to call her mom, I ask the other nanny to call her mom. Now I didn't call them mom anymore because I have "real" America mom, beside ever since I left my foster family, call other people mom was just awkward to me.
2. "You should blame your parents for they abandon you, what a cruel person they are!"
I think very few orphans in China know the reasons that their parents abandon them. Yes, they have the right to be mad at their biological parents. However, adult's job should be to teach the kids how to forgive their biological parents. Encourage them to try to think the reasons that their parents abandoned them, and later try to stop parents to abandon children when they grow up. I think the reason that my biological parents abandon me is that I have a disability. They thought that I have to be fixed by doctors, or I won't have a good life, but they didn't have money. I am mad that they don't have confidence that people with disability can do stuff. Now is the time for me to forgive them. When I grow up, I will show the whole world that no matter how disable you are, if you have confidence, if you work hard and not give up, then you can do anything you want to do. Is just that the way that we do stuff might be different than yours. Later I will write a post about people with disability.
3. "No wonder that you parents abandon you."
Sometimes when the orphans did something that made the nannies or other people mad, they will scold them. Sometimes the adults will use this sentence to scold them. This had never happen to me. However, orphans usually are being abandoned when they are infants. What big mistake can an infant do to deserve to be abandoned? Not a single thing! Orphans are same as everybody else, only their parents abandon them. And is just not their fault!
Things That Shouldn't be Done to Newly Adopted Kids:
1. "You are so lucky!"
I don't know why people would say that to a newly adopted kid. Maybe they mean that for orphans, it's better for them to be adopted than to be an orphan all life long. I agree with that. However, maybe you guys don't know that tell the kids to give up all the things and to live with strangers is very hard. It will be harder if the parents speak a different language! Is that called lucky? Orphans aren't lucky to begin with. Every kid should start with a love family. Orphans being adopted are called that their life might be better, but totally not lucky. If you continue to say this, then I want you to answer me a question: Would you trade life with them?
2. "Why you don't love your family?"
a. Will you fall in love immediately with an adult that you just met? If the answer is yes, then would you love the stranger family immediately when you have to give up all everything to live with them? If they speak different language, would you love them immediately? Is your answer still yes? If is not, then please don't ask that question to a newly adopted kids. A period of new family to some orphans are short, to some are long. What I mean is that some kids get use to the family fast. Some kids get use to the family slow. You have to give them time. So if you didn't see them show their love to their parents, then please don't ask that question. Of course, if sometimes you ask them why they never miss or think about their family or similar question, then don't ask that either. When people ask me this question, I felt uncomfortable; I thought I wasn't a good person because I don't love my new family. I think the people who ask newly adopted kids these questions doesn't want them to feel that way, right? You can try to tell the newly adopted kids how much their parents love them, but not too much. Because then it was made them feel guilty.
b. Sometime parents will adopted another kid during their first adopted kid's adjustment to the family. Usually when parents adopted many kids, the kids didn't know each other before they got adopted. Beside usually it's not the kid who got adopted to choose whom should they adopted. So the adopted kids might not fell in love with the kid who is going to enter his/her family. In this situation, you can't ask those questions that I talked about either.
I want you guys to share to other people when you finished read this, especially about things that shouldn't be done to the newly adopted kids. These two things sometimes are pressure to them. If they don't have that pressure, then maybe they will get use to the family quicker.
Wednesday, July 27, 2016
Thought about Family as an Orphan
孤儿对家庭的想法
读者们好！我好长时间没有在我的博客写东西了。我的学校生活很忙而且这几个月我也不知道我应该在我的博客上写什么。现在我想了想：我想写作为一个孤儿，我对家庭是有什么样的想法。这是一个很难的过程而且大多数我是孤儿的时候我也不知道我是怎么想的。
我从小是跟一个寄养家庭在农村长大的。我以为他们是我的亲生父母。不过同时，我在那里上学的时候我觉得我班跟其他班不一样。我也不知道我是怎么知道我班大多数或所有的同学，加上我，都是孤儿。我养父有时候跟我开玩笑说：“如果你不听话的话，那你就会送到福利院。”我那时候笑了笑然后什么都没想。
当我八岁的时候，不知道为什么，我被送到了福利院。但我也没有问任何问题。我养母实在是舍不得我走。我养父安慰安慰了我养母。我那时候很想念我的养父养母因为他们对我很好。在我在福利院4年的时候，他们只看过我两次。我知道有一个女孩的寄养家庭父母在她被收养之前在福利院的一两年时就被看望过16次。我不明白为什么我养父养母只看我一两次。难道他们不想我吗？不对。当他们看我的时候然后我们要分开的时候我养母是很舍不得我的。阿姨们告诉我那个女孩被看望那么多次是因为她很听话。（他们老是用这个原因，像你为什么没有被收养什么的）我那时候没有相信因为那个愿意根本就不符合道理。后来我知道我养父养母问了他们去看我好几遍了，但不知为什么，他们只让我养父养母看我一两次。
我在福利院最后一年的时候，我听有人给他的寄养父母打了电话。阿姨们告诉我们福利院的电话不能打外线的。(除非你摁9）
我给我寄养家庭和刘雨晴打了几个电话。然后有一天有一个在办公室的阿姨告诉我我养母告诉了他们我给他们打了电话，我告诉了他们事实然后他们说我不能再打了。我那时候不高兴。第一，为什么我养母告诉了他们？第二，为什么我不能给我寄养父母打电话？我又不是石头，我是有感受的！对我来说，他们是在偷走我的家！然后我继续想，为什么我寄养家庭把我送到福利院？我那时候知道我是个孤儿，但同时我又觉得我寄养家庭是我的亲生家庭。这个对你们和我都很糊里糊涂的！
后来我知道我养母没有告诉福利院我给他们打了电话。那个阿姨骗我这样我能说实话，这实在是太不公平了！他们怎么能这样做呀！在福利院，很多阿姨说谎，我讨厌她们说谎，而且她们从来都没有为了这个道过歉！但小孩说谎的时候，她们就告诉小孩子们说谎是不好的。这也太不公平了吧！我后来也知道我寄养父母不是我的亲生父母，他们把我送到福利院是因为他们想让我上个好学校然后或许被收养。
在福利院里，人们说好多关于收养的事儿。我只在听到孩子们被收养了或是他们要被收养的时候才想到想有家。我知道当你14岁的时候，你就不能被收养了。当我12岁左右，我不敢想象在中国外面跟一个家庭生活。当我听到孩子去美国的时候，我就想为什么没有一个孩子呆在中国？有一次我听说我的一个朋友被一个中国家庭收养而且住在另一个中国的部分。那时我就希望我的未来是被一个中国家庭收养而且呆在中国。当然了，这个根本就没有发生。但我是真的很希望中国人会收养中国小孩的！那就太好了！
有时候我在中国想：“如果我没有被收养而且呆在中国又有什么大不了的？我的生活又不是那么坏。”
在2011年，11月29日，阿姨们告诉我我有家庭了。我那时候很高兴，但说实话，我也不知道为什么我那么高兴。我只知道我很高兴。你们从来有没有这个感受呀？我从那天到我见到我父母之前都很高兴。当我见到我父母的时候，我就变安静了。当我们要走的时候我留了几滴眼泪。然后我们去了将阿姨和叔叔的家里。他们的工作是欢迎外国人然后让他们了解了解北京。当他们商量我们在北京这几天应该做什么，我主要就是想看我知道的人。他们同意了而且结果我看望了我小学大约一小时。然后我去了刘雨晴的家里。那天是我和我父母在中国做好的一天。
我跟我父母的第二天是我签字同不同意他们当我的父母。我说我同意因为我知道如果我不同意的话，阿姨肯定会骂我骂道我会后悔后悔到一生。我是怎么知道的？有二个孩子被收养了但他们拒绝了。有一个孩子后悔了阿姨们跟他们提了这件事好几次。
当我来到了美国，我很想中国而且家里没有什么事儿可以做的。我浪费了好多时间。我打了好多电话。中国人好多次都告诉我我父母是爱我的而且我也要爱他们。我那是很不舒服而且很内疚。
当我妈妈收养了我从来都没有认识的Lucy，我美国同学会问我我想不想她或是我爱不爱她。我没有回答，但我很内疚。
有一次我们去了一个饭店家北京，那里有一个中国阿姨问我我是不是被收养的。我们说是的。她说我很幸运。我那时候不同意因为我是在跟两个陌生人一起住而且他们说的语言跟我不一样，但我也没说什么。
一年又一年过去了，Amy来到了我家庭。时间过去了，Amy在我融入家庭之前自己融入了家庭。看着看着，我就希望我也能有这样的快乐。所以我开始学怎么爱我家人。这是一个很长的过程！但我做到了！！！我为我父母要等我三年的时间才会回爱他们感到对不起，但后来我知道从当孤儿到有一个陌生家庭是非常难的！！你得让他们慢慢的融入家庭里。
我有跟多的感受要写，但我觉得要把所有的写到一夜博客上好像是太多了。所以请您呆在这儿！
Hey Readers! It's been a long time since I've written anything down in my blog. I got pretty busy with my school life and I don't know what to write in my blog these couple months. Right now I thought about it: I want to write about as a orphan, what do I think about family. It's a hard process and I didn't know how do I felt about it when I was an orphan most of the times.
Growing up, I lived with a foster family on the country side. I thought they were my biological parents. However, at the same time, I went to school there and I felt that my class is different than other class in the school. Somehow, I knew that most or all of my classmates are orphan, including me. My foster father sometimes joked with me saying, "If you don't well behave, then you will be sent into the orphanage." I laughed, and didn't really think about it.
When I was eight years old, I move to the orphanage and don't know why! I didn't ask any questions though. My foster mother had a hard time of letting me go. My foster father comforted my foster mother. I missed my foster parents a lot because they were really good to me. They only visit me once or twice while I was in the orphanage for 4 years. I knew a girl who was getting 16 visits in one or two years before she got adopted. I wondered why my foster parents only visit me that much. Do they not miss me? No. When they visit me, they looked like they miss me a lot and when the visit is over, my foster mother had a hard time of letting me go. The nannies told me the girl got so much visit because she was so well behaved. (They use if you well behaved for a lot of reason, like why you didn't get a family!) I didn't believe the reason anyway because it's just doesn't make any sense to me. Later I found out that my foster family asked to visit me many times, but for some reasons, they only let them visit me once or twice.
The last years of orphanages, I heard somebody made phone call to their foster family. The nannies have been told kids that the phone in the orphanage can't make phone call outside the orphanages. (not if you don't hit 9 before you dial the number)
I made couple phone calls to my foster parents and to Liu Yuqing. Then one day one of the nannies who work in office told me that my foster mother told them that I made phone calls to them, I told them to truth and they say to not to do it again. I was unhappy. First, why my foster mother told them? Second, why can't I talk to my foster parents? I am not a rock, I have feelings! To me, they were steal my family from me! Then I wondering more, why my foster family sent me to the orphanage? I knew I was an orphan, yet at the same time I thought my foster family was my biological family. That was so confusing to you and to me too!!
Later I know that my foster mother didn't tell the orphanage that I made phone call to me. That nanny lied to me so I could admit the truth, that is so unfair! How could they do that! In the orphanage, a lot of the nanny lie, I hated it when they did it, and they never said sorry about it. When it come to kids lying, they told the kids that it's not good to lie! So unfair! I also found out that my foster parents aren't my biological parents, and they sent me to the orphanage to have better education and maybe get adopted.
People talk a lot of adoption in the orphanage. I only thought about wanting a family when I hear kids adopted or when they talk about who is getting a family. I knew when you turn 14, you aged out. When I was around 12, I could't imagine of having a family and living outside of China. Sometimes when they talk about kids go to America, I wondered why none of them stay in China? One time I hear a rumor that one of my friends was adopted by a Chinese family and live in another part of China. That time I wished that my future will be a Chinese family adopt me and stay in China. Of course, it didn't happen. Though I really wish that Chinese people will adopted Chinese orphans! That will be wonderful!!
Sometimes in China I thought, "What's the big deal if I don't get adopted and stay in China? My life isn't too horrible anyway."
On November 29. 2011, the nannies told me that I have a family. I was so happy, but to be honest, I didn't quiet know what I was happy about. I just know that I was happy. Have you had that kind of feelings? I stay happy until the day when my parents got me. I got quiet. When we are leave, I drop a little bit of tears. Then we went back to a house that belong to a women whose name is Joy, and the men call Michael. They job was to welcome foreigners to their house and get them to know Beijing. When they talk about what to do while my family stay in Beijing, the main things that I thought was to see the people that I know. They agree and I ended up visiting my elementary school for about a hour or so. Then I went to LiuYuqing's house. That day was the best day when I was in China with my parents.
The second day with my parents is the day that I sign whether if I want them to be my parents or not. I said yes because I knew if I didn't said yes, the nannies probably going to scold me so bad that I am going to be regret for the rest of my life. How do I know that? There was two kids that was adopted but said no to it. One of them regret because the nannies reminded them again and again.
When I came to America, I was very homesick and there is nothing to do. I waste a lot of times. I made a lot of phone calls. People in China told me over and over again that my parents loves me and I should loves them back. I felt very uncomfortable and guilty.
When my mom adopted Lucy, who was totally stranger to me before, my American classmates will ask if I miss Lucy or loves her. I didn't answer, but I felt guilty.
Onetime we went to a restaurant call Beijing and there is a women who is Chinese and ask me if I was adopted. We told her yes. She said that I was lucky. I disagreed at that time because I was living with two strangers who speak different languages but I didn't say anything.
Year went by, Amy came to our family. Time went by, Amy started to get use to the family before me. As I watched, I wish I could have that kind of happiness too. So I started to learned how to love my family. It's a such long process! However, I did it!!! I felt sorry that my parents have to wait 3 years for me to loves them back, but I later also understood that transition from an orphan to having a family with strangers is just hard!! You just have to let them to take their own time to get adjust to the family.
I have a lot more thoughts to write down, but I think it's too long to write in one post. So please hang in there!
读者们好！我好长时间没有在我的博客写东西了。我的学校生活很忙而且这几个月我也不知道我应该在我的博客上写什么。现在我想了想：我想写作为一个孤儿，我对家庭是有什么样的想法。这是一个很难的过程而且大多数我是孤儿的时候我也不知道我是怎么想的。
我从小是跟一个寄养家庭在农村长大的。我以为他们是我的亲生父母。不过同时，我在那里上学的时候我觉得我班跟其他班不一样。我也不知道我是怎么知道我班大多数或所有的同学，加上我，都是孤儿。我养父有时候跟我开玩笑说：“如果你不听话的话，那你就会送到福利院。”我那时候笑了笑然后什么都没想。
当我八岁的时候，不知道为什么，我被送到了福利院。但我也没有问任何问题。我养母实在是舍不得我走。我养父安慰安慰了我养母。我那时候很想念我的养父养母因为他们对我很好。在我在福利院4年的时候，他们只看过我两次。我知道有一个女孩的寄养家庭父母在她被收养之前在福利院的一两年时就被看望过16次。我不明白为什么我养父养母只看我一两次。难道他们不想我吗？不对。当他们看我的时候然后我们要分开的时候我养母是很舍不得我的。阿姨们告诉我那个女孩被看望那么多次是因为她很听话。（他们老是用这个原因，像你为什么没有被收养什么的）我那时候没有相信因为那个愿意根本就不符合道理。后来我知道我养父养母问了他们去看我好几遍了，但不知为什么，他们只让我养父养母看我一两次。
我在福利院最后一年的时候，我听有人给他的寄养父母打了电话。阿姨们告诉我们福利院的电话不能打外线的。(除非你摁9）
我给我寄养家庭和刘雨晴打了几个电话。然后有一天有一个在办公室的阿姨告诉我我养母告诉了他们我给他们打了电话，我告诉了他们事实然后他们说我不能再打了。我那时候不高兴。第一，为什么我养母告诉了他们？第二，为什么我不能给我寄养父母打电话？我又不是石头，我是有感受的！对我来说，他们是在偷走我的家！然后我继续想，为什么我寄养家庭把我送到福利院？我那时候知道我是个孤儿，但同时我又觉得我寄养家庭是我的亲生家庭。这个对你们和我都很糊里糊涂的！
后来我知道我养母没有告诉福利院我给他们打了电话。那个阿姨骗我这样我能说实话，这实在是太不公平了！他们怎么能这样做呀！在福利院，很多阿姨说谎，我讨厌她们说谎，而且她们从来都没有为了这个道过歉！但小孩说谎的时候，她们就告诉小孩子们说谎是不好的。这也太不公平了吧！我后来也知道我寄养父母不是我的亲生父母，他们把我送到福利院是因为他们想让我上个好学校然后或许被收养。
在福利院里，人们说好多关于收养的事儿。我只在听到孩子们被收养了或是他们要被收养的时候才想到想有家。我知道当你14岁的时候，你就不能被收养了。当我12岁左右，我不敢想象在中国外面跟一个家庭生活。当我听到孩子去美国的时候，我就想为什么没有一个孩子呆在中国？有一次我听说我的一个朋友被一个中国家庭收养而且住在另一个中国的部分。那时我就希望我的未来是被一个中国家庭收养而且呆在中国。当然了，这个根本就没有发生。但我是真的很希望中国人会收养中国小孩的！那就太好了！
有时候我在中国想：“如果我没有被收养而且呆在中国又有什么大不了的？我的生活又不是那么坏。”
在2011年，11月29日，阿姨们告诉我我有家庭了。我那时候很高兴，但说实话，我也不知道为什么我那么高兴。我只知道我很高兴。你们从来有没有这个感受呀？我从那天到我见到我父母之前都很高兴。当我见到我父母的时候，我就变安静了。当我们要走的时候我留了几滴眼泪。然后我们去了将阿姨和叔叔的家里。他们的工作是欢迎外国人然后让他们了解了解北京。当他们商量我们在北京这几天应该做什么，我主要就是想看我知道的人。他们同意了而且结果我看望了我小学大约一小时。然后我去了刘雨晴的家里。那天是我和我父母在中国做好的一天。
我跟我父母的第二天是我签字同不同意他们当我的父母。我说我同意因为我知道如果我不同意的话，阿姨肯定会骂我骂道我会后悔后悔到一生。我是怎么知道的？有二个孩子被收养了但他们拒绝了。有一个孩子后悔了阿姨们跟他们提了这件事好几次。
当我来到了美国，我很想中国而且家里没有什么事儿可以做的。我浪费了好多时间。我打了好多电话。中国人好多次都告诉我我父母是爱我的而且我也要爱他们。我那是很不舒服而且很内疚。
当我妈妈收养了我从来都没有认识的Lucy，我美国同学会问我我想不想她或是我爱不爱她。我没有回答，但我很内疚。
有一次我们去了一个饭店家北京，那里有一个中国阿姨问我我是不是被收养的。我们说是的。她说我很幸运。我那时候不同意因为我是在跟两个陌生人一起住而且他们说的语言跟我不一样，但我也没说什么。
一年又一年过去了，Amy来到了我家庭。时间过去了，Amy在我融入家庭之前自己融入了家庭。看着看着，我就希望我也能有这样的快乐。所以我开始学怎么爱我家人。这是一个很长的过程！但我做到了！！！我为我父母要等我三年的时间才会回爱他们感到对不起，但后来我知道从当孤儿到有一个陌生家庭是非常难的！！你得让他们慢慢的融入家庭里。
我有跟多的感受要写，但我觉得要把所有的写到一夜博客上好像是太多了。所以请您呆在这儿！
Hey Readers! It's been a long time since I've written anything down in my blog. I got pretty busy with my school life and I don't know what to write in my blog these couple months. Right now I thought about it: I want to write about as a orphan, what do I think about family. It's a hard process and I didn't know how do I felt about it when I was an orphan most of the times.
Growing up, I lived with a foster family on the country side. I thought they were my biological parents. However, at the same time, I went to school there and I felt that my class is different than other class in the school. Somehow, I knew that most or all of my classmates are orphan, including me. My foster father sometimes joked with me saying, "If you don't well behave, then you will be sent into the orphanage." I laughed, and didn't really think about it.
When I was eight years old, I move to the orphanage and don't know why! I didn't ask any questions though. My foster mother had a hard time of letting me go. My foster father comforted my foster mother. I missed my foster parents a lot because they were really good to me. They only visit me once or twice while I was in the orphanage for 4 years. I knew a girl who was getting 16 visits in one or two years before she got adopted. I wondered why my foster parents only visit me that much. Do they not miss me? No. When they visit me, they looked like they miss me a lot and when the visit is over, my foster mother had a hard time of letting me go. The nannies told me the girl got so much visit because she was so well behaved. (They use if you well behaved for a lot of reason, like why you didn't get a family!) I didn't believe the reason anyway because it's just doesn't make any sense to me. Later I found out that my foster family asked to visit me many times, but for some reasons, they only let them visit me once or twice.
The last years of orphanages, I heard somebody made phone call to their foster family. The nannies have been told kids that the phone in the orphanage can't make phone call outside the orphanages. (not if you don't hit 9 before you dial the number)
I made couple phone calls to my foster parents and to Liu Yuqing. Then one day one of the nannies who work in office told me that my foster mother told them that I made phone calls to them, I told them to truth and they say to not to do it again. I was unhappy. First, why my foster mother told them? Second, why can't I talk to my foster parents? I am not a rock, I have feelings! To me, they were steal my family from me! Then I wondering more, why my foster family sent me to the orphanage? I knew I was an orphan, yet at the same time I thought my foster family was my biological family. That was so confusing to you and to me too!!
Later I know that my foster mother didn't tell the orphanage that I made phone call to me. That nanny lied to me so I could admit the truth, that is so unfair! How could they do that! In the orphanage, a lot of the nanny lie, I hated it when they did it, and they never said sorry about it. When it come to kids lying, they told the kids that it's not good to lie! So unfair! I also found out that my foster parents aren't my biological parents, and they sent me to the orphanage to have better education and maybe get adopted.
People talk a lot of adoption in the orphanage. I only thought about wanting a family when I hear kids adopted or when they talk about who is getting a family. I knew when you turn 14, you aged out. When I was around 12, I could't imagine of having a family and living outside of China. Sometimes when they talk about kids go to America, I wondered why none of them stay in China? One time I hear a rumor that one of my friends was adopted by a Chinese family and live in another part of China. That time I wished that my future will be a Chinese family adopt me and stay in China. Of course, it didn't happen. Though I really wish that Chinese people will adopted Chinese orphans! That will be wonderful!!
Sometimes in China I thought, "What's the big deal if I don't get adopted and stay in China? My life isn't too horrible anyway."
On November 29. 2011, the nannies told me that I have a family. I was so happy, but to be honest, I didn't quiet know what I was happy about. I just know that I was happy. Have you had that kind of feelings? I stay happy until the day when my parents got me. I got quiet. When we are leave, I drop a little bit of tears. Then we went back to a house that belong to a women whose name is Joy, and the men call Michael. They job was to welcome foreigners to their house and get them to know Beijing. When they talk about what to do while my family stay in Beijing, the main things that I thought was to see the people that I know. They agree and I ended up visiting my elementary school for about a hour or so. Then I went to LiuYuqing's house. That day was the best day when I was in China with my parents.
The second day with my parents is the day that I sign whether if I want them to be my parents or not. I said yes because I knew if I didn't said yes, the nannies probably going to scold me so bad that I am going to be regret for the rest of my life. How do I know that? There was two kids that was adopted but said no to it. One of them regret because the nannies reminded them again and again.
When I came to America, I was very homesick and there is nothing to do. I waste a lot of times. I made a lot of phone calls. People in China told me over and over again that my parents loves me and I should loves them back. I felt very uncomfortable and guilty.
When my mom adopted Lucy, who was totally stranger to me before, my American classmates will ask if I miss Lucy or loves her. I didn't answer, but I felt guilty.
Onetime we went to a restaurant call Beijing and there is a women who is Chinese and ask me if I was adopted. We told her yes. She said that I was lucky. I disagreed at that time because I was living with two strangers who speak different languages but I didn't say anything.
Year went by, Amy came to our family. Time went by, Amy started to get use to the family before me. As I watched, I wish I could have that kind of happiness too. So I started to learned how to love my family. It's a such long process! However, I did it!!! I felt sorry that my parents have to wait 3 years for me to loves them back, but I later also understood that transition from an orphan to having a family with strangers is just hard!! You just have to let them to take their own time to get adjust to the family.
I have a lot more thoughts to write down, but I think it's too long to write in one post. So please hang in there!
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
You Need to End It!
你得要结束这个！
在2014年初的时候，我还是再给刘雨晴打电话。她还是没有变，我试着给她说她应该尊重我一点儿，但是她根本就没有听进去。我也没有说什么。
有一次一个人问我她能不能跟刘雨晴说话。当时我就不明白，因为她那时候的语气不是特别的高兴。之后她就说刘雨晴不应该这样对待我。我跟她说没关系，这已经过去了。但是她说刘雨晴这让对待我就是不对，这根本就有关系。那时候我倒是挺害怕的，因为以前刘雨晴对我也挺好的，所以我觉得我应该保持这个友谊。不过后来刘雨晴还是没有变，所以我就给她写了一封信，跟她说如果她能对我好一点，那我们还是好朋友。如果她不能的话，那我们的友谊就结束了。这封信我已经在差不过一年前邮过去了，但是她从来就没有回信给我。
现在我倒是想了想，当我想起她有时候帮我说话的时候，我觉得我不应该做这件事儿。没有一个人在这世界从没有做过好事或只有做过好事。我觉得那时候我应该原谅她。
说到了原谅，这就提到了我中国的同学。我以前说过了，如果一个人老是对我不好，然后一瞬间那个人就马上对我好了，我当时的感受是很高兴，而且我会马上原谅他们。我不会想为什么他们会一瞬间这样的。有一个人说他们对我好是因为我那时候快要到美国了。可是我觉得那时候他们好像在长大。不过不管为什么，我已经跟他们我原谅他们了。
有人说我应该结束这个感情，可我不觉得，因为我觉得他们在改变。每个人都不是完美的，当他们犯错的时候，你得需要原谅他们，因为每次我们犯错的时候，上帝会原谅我们的。
In the beginning, I still made phone calls to Linda. She still hasn't changed. I tried to tell her that she should respect me a little bit, but she didn't listen to it at all. I didn't say anything either.
One time there was one person asked if she can talk to Linda. I didn't get it, because her tone wasn't very happy. Then she said that Linda shouldn't treat me like that. I said to her that it's okay, that was in the past. However, she said that the way Linda treated me just wasn't right, that wasn't okay. I was pretty scared, because before Linda treated me pretty good, so I thought I should keep that friendship. However, Linda still didn't change, so I wrote a letter to her, told her that if she could be nicer to me, then we can still be friends. If she couldn't, then our friendship would end it. I mailed this letter almost a year ago, but she never mail back to me.
Now I think back, when I think that sometimes she helped me speak up, I think I shouldn't have done that. No one in this world never done good things or only done good things. I think at that time I should forgive her.
Talking about forgiving, that brings up my classmate in China. I said that before, if one person always treat me badly, then suddenly treat me nicely, my feeling at the time is very happy, and I will forgive them. I will not think why they suddenly done that. One person said they treat me good at that time I was going to America. However, I thought at that time they were growing more mature. However, no matter why, I already forgive them.
Some people said I should end this relationship, but I don't think, because I think they will still change. Everybody isn't perfect, when they make wrong turn, you need to forgive them, because everytime when we make wrong turn, God will forgive us.
在2014年初的时候，我还是再给刘雨晴打电话。她还是没有变，我试着给她说她应该尊重我一点儿，但是她根本就没有听进去。我也没有说什么。
有一次一个人问我她能不能跟刘雨晴说话。当时我就不明白，因为她那时候的语气不是特别的高兴。之后她就说刘雨晴不应该这样对待我。我跟她说没关系，这已经过去了。但是她说刘雨晴这让对待我就是不对，这根本就有关系。那时候我倒是挺害怕的，因为以前刘雨晴对我也挺好的，所以我觉得我应该保持这个友谊。不过后来刘雨晴还是没有变，所以我就给她写了一封信，跟她说如果她能对我好一点，那我们还是好朋友。如果她不能的话，那我们的友谊就结束了。这封信我已经在差不过一年前邮过去了，但是她从来就没有回信给我。
现在我倒是想了想，当我想起她有时候帮我说话的时候，我觉得我不应该做这件事儿。没有一个人在这世界从没有做过好事或只有做过好事。我觉得那时候我应该原谅她。
说到了原谅，这就提到了我中国的同学。我以前说过了，如果一个人老是对我不好，然后一瞬间那个人就马上对我好了，我当时的感受是很高兴，而且我会马上原谅他们。我不会想为什么他们会一瞬间这样的。有一个人说他们对我好是因为我那时候快要到美国了。可是我觉得那时候他们好像在长大。不过不管为什么，我已经跟他们我原谅他们了。
有人说我应该结束这个感情，可我不觉得，因为我觉得他们在改变。每个人都不是完美的，当他们犯错的时候，你得需要原谅他们，因为每次我们犯错的时候，上帝会原谅我们的。
In the beginning, I still made phone calls to Linda. She still hasn't changed. I tried to tell her that she should respect me a little bit, but she didn't listen to it at all. I didn't say anything either.
One time there was one person asked if she can talk to Linda. I didn't get it, because her tone wasn't very happy. Then she said that Linda shouldn't treat me like that. I said to her that it's okay, that was in the past. However, she said that the way Linda treated me just wasn't right, that wasn't okay. I was pretty scared, because before Linda treated me pretty good, so I thought I should keep that friendship. However, Linda still didn't change, so I wrote a letter to her, told her that if she could be nicer to me, then we can still be friends. If she couldn't, then our friendship would end it. I mailed this letter almost a year ago, but she never mail back to me.
Now I think back, when I think that sometimes she helped me speak up, I think I shouldn't have done that. No one in this world never done good things or only done good things. I think at that time I should forgive her.
Talking about forgiving, that brings up my classmate in China. I said that before, if one person always treat me badly, then suddenly treat me nicely, my feeling at the time is very happy, and I will forgive them. I will not think why they suddenly done that. One person said they treat me good at that time I was going to America. However, I thought at that time they were growing more mature. However, no matter why, I already forgive them.
Some people said I should end this relationship, but I don't think, because I think they will still change. Everybody isn't perfect, when they make wrong turn, you need to forgive them, because everytime when we make wrong turn, God will forgive us.
Thursday, April 2, 2015
Day 17- Leaving Beijing China
第十七天－离开中国北京
在2013年12月16日星期一中午，我们离开了中国北京。
早上我们的早饭很晚，之后江阿姨教了我们做饺子。我很喜欢做饺子，那是我第二次做饺子。我第一次做饺子的时候是当我爸爸妈妈刚收养我的时候。我在福利院从来都没有做过饺子。
我很喜欢叔叔给我们做的饭。等我们做完饺子的时候，叔叔让妈妈和我看了看他是怎么做法的，不过现在我已经忘了怎么做了。哎呀！
等我们快要走的时候，我们的午餐是饺子。我超喜欢饺子。之后我们去机场那儿。等我们上飞机的时候，我很舍不得，我好想念郑老师呀。我对北京说了："再见了，中国北京，我会想念你的！"
On December 16, 2013, in the afternoon, we left Beijing, China.
We had a very late breakfast, then Joy taught us how to make dumplings. I liked to make dumplings very much. That was my second time making dumplings. My first time was when my mom and dad just adopted me. I never made dumplings in the orphanage.
I liked the food that Michael made for us. When we finished making dumplings, Michael let mom and I see how he cooked the food, but now I have already forgotten how to cook. Oops!
When we were about to go, we had a dumpling lunch. I like to eat dumplings very much. Then we went to the airport. When we got on the airplane, I was so not ready to leave. I missed Mrs. Zheng. I said to Beijing, "Goodbye, Beijing, China. I will miss you!"
在2013年12月16日星期一中午，我们离开了中国北京。
早上我们的早饭很晚，之后江阿姨教了我们做饺子。我很喜欢做饺子，那是我第二次做饺子。我第一次做饺子的时候是当我爸爸妈妈刚收养我的时候。我在福利院从来都没有做过饺子。
我很喜欢叔叔给我们做的饭。等我们做完饺子的时候，叔叔让妈妈和我看了看他是怎么做法的，不过现在我已经忘了怎么做了。哎呀！
等我们快要走的时候，我们的午餐是饺子。我超喜欢饺子。之后我们去机场那儿。等我们上飞机的时候，我很舍不得，我好想念郑老师呀。我对北京说了："再见了，中国北京，我会想念你的！"
On December 16, 2013, in the afternoon, we left Beijing, China.
We had a very late breakfast, then Joy taught us how to make dumplings. I liked to make dumplings very much. That was my second time making dumplings. My first time was when my mom and dad just adopted me. I never made dumplings in the orphanage.
I liked the food that Michael made for us. When we finished making dumplings, Michael let mom and I see how he cooked the food, but now I have already forgotten how to cook. Oops!
When we were about to go, we had a dumpling lunch. I like to eat dumplings very much. Then we went to the airport. When we got on the airplane, I was so not ready to leave. I missed Mrs. Zheng. I said to Beijing, "Goodbye, Beijing, China. I will miss you!"
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Day 14- Hutongs, Visiting, and Olympic building
第14天－胡同，看望，和奥运建筑
在2013年12月13日我们去了四个地方：胡同，清河一小（我的学校），北京市儿童福利院，水立方，和鸟巢。
那天上午我们先去了胡同，我们可喜欢了。我们做了一个出租自行车（照片在下面）：
我们跟了那些人说了说话，Amy最能说话了。我很想跟她一样能说话。我们俩倒挺高兴的。有时候Amy还让那个人要在妈妈和江阿姨的前面（我们做两个自行车，一个是我和 Amy，另一个是江阿姨和妈妈），真好玩。
之后我们去了鼓楼。等他们表演完了，我们问了Amy有几个鼓，她说五个而且中间是个大的。
中午的时候我们去了清河一小。那时候我的同学已经上六年级了。我的中国老师和同学都很高兴。在我下车的时候，我看见了品德悦老师。当我要进教室的时候，Amy就不想进去，我那时候不知道为什么。我努力鼓励了她，她最后终于进去了，但是不知道为什么她好像不怎么高兴。那些学生问了问我一些问题，我回答了他们。很多的同学都变了很多，我差一点都认不出他们了！那时候我班也来了两个新学生，我忘了他们的名字了。一男一女。
上一天晚上我给刘雨晴打了电话，她告诉了我陶老师说我班同学必须要给我做一张贺卡。我当时就想，陶老师她好像不应该这样，人家不想就不想吧，只要他们不在欺负我就行了。所以那天等我离开教室的时候，好像每一个人都个我一张贺卡。我给每一个人美国25美分硬币。
陶老师让刘雨晴和她最好的朋友尹静跟我一块儿去看刘老师和郑老师。我问了问我能不能看清河一小我两个最好的朋友曹溪娟和张涵。我很高兴见到他们。她们俩不跟我一班。我们三个走得很快。我很高兴看刘老师和郑老师。之后我们又回到了教室，在我们回教室的路上，我们碰见了我四年级的语文李老师。我们说了说话。等我们回了教室，我们合了一张影。之后他们问我了我的电子邮件，我写在了黑板上。
等我们要走的时候，我很舍不得，但是我什么都没说。我那时候超想念郑老师。
下一站是福利院。我们坐在福利院的门口上。江阿姨问哪里的警察能不能让高阿姨出来。开始有一个阿姨问我我记得她吗？我当时很糊涂。我根本就没有见过她！他在说啥呢！我也不知道她为啥知道我。之后Amy就请阿姨让我见高阿姨因为我一年都没有见她了，Amy她这人可真好呀。然后高阿姨出来了，但是我不知道要说什么，哎呀真是的！我们照了照相，然后给了对方拥抱。等我们走了的时候，我很想去二儿福去看苏楠楠她们，但是妈妈说不行因为那个福利院说不行。真实的。
下一站是水立方和鸟巢。里面倒挺好看的。
这就是在中国的第14天，也就是在北京的第二天。
In 2013 December 13 we went to four places: Hutong, Qinghe #1 (my school), Beijing Orphanage, Water Cube and Bird Nest.
That day in the morning we went went to Hu tong. We liked it very much. We rode in a bicycle taxi:
We talked to the some of people. Amy is the most talkative. I really want to be like Amy know how to talk. We were pretty happy. Sometimes Amy even let the person go front of Joy and Mom (we rode in two bicycles, one is Amy and I, other is Joy and mom), so fun.
Then we went to the drum tower. When they finished performance, we asked Amy how many durums there are. She said five and the middle is the bigger one. (She was right.)
At noon we went to Qinghe #1. My classmates were in sixth grade. My Chinese teachers and classmates were very happy. When I got out of the car, I saw my morality teacher Mr. Yue. When I was about to go into the classroom, Amy didn't want to come in, I didn't know why. I tried to encourage her, she finally came in, but didn't know why she wasn't very happy. Those students asked me a lot of questions, and I answered them. Many of them changed a lot, I almost didn't recognize them! My class also had two new students, I forget their names. One was girl and one was boy.
The night before I called my classmate, Liuyuqing. She told me that Mrs. Tao said that my classmates had to make me a card. I was thinking, Mrs. Tao shouldn't be that way, they don't want to they don't want to, at least they aren't going to bully me, that's a good thing. So that day when I leave the classroom, almost every student gave me card. I gave everyone American quarters.
Mrs. Tai let Liuyuqing and her best friend Yin Jing go see Mrs. Liu and Mrs. Zheng with me. I asked if I can go see my two best friends in Qinghe #1, Cao Xijuan and Zhang Han. I was very happy to see them. They weren't in the same class with me. Three of us (Liu Yuqing, Yin Jing and I) walked very fast. I was very happy to see Mrs. Liu and Mrs. Zheng. Then we went back to our classroom, on our way back, we bumped into my fourth grade Language Art teacher Mrs. Li. We talked a little bit. When we got back to the classroom, we took a group picture. Then they asked my email address, I wrote on blackboard.
When we had to go, I really didn't want to go, but I didn't say anything. I missed Mrs. Zheng so much.
Next stop was the orphanage. We sat at the door of the orphanage. Joy asked the police in there if they can let Nanny Gao to come out. At first there was a nanny asked me if I remember her or not. I was very confused. I never met her before! What was she talking about? I don't know why the nanny knows me. Then Amy started to ask that nanny if I can see Nanny Gao because I haven't see her for a year! Amy she is a such good person! Then Nanny Gao came out, but I didn't know what to said, Shoot! We took some pictures, then gave each other a hug. When we were leaving, I really wanted to go to Orphanage #2 to see Su Nannan and other, but mom said no because the orphanage said no. Shoot.
Next stop is Water cube and Bird Nest. Inside was very pretty.
That was the 14th day in China, which is the second day in Beijing.
在2013年12月13日我们去了四个地方：胡同，清河一小（我的学校），北京市儿童福利院，水立方，和鸟巢。
那天上午我们先去了胡同，我们可喜欢了。我们做了一个出租自行车（照片在下面）：
我们跟了那些人说了说话，Amy最能说话了。我很想跟她一样能说话。我们俩倒挺高兴的。有时候Amy还让那个人要在妈妈和江阿姨的前面（我们做两个自行车，一个是我和 Amy，另一个是江阿姨和妈妈），真好玩。
之后我们去了鼓楼。等他们表演完了，我们问了Amy有几个鼓，她说五个而且中间是个大的。
中午的时候我们去了清河一小。那时候我的同学已经上六年级了。我的中国老师和同学都很高兴。在我下车的时候，我看见了品德悦老师。当我要进教室的时候，Amy就不想进去，我那时候不知道为什么。我努力鼓励了她，她最后终于进去了，但是不知道为什么她好像不怎么高兴。那些学生问了问我一些问题，我回答了他们。很多的同学都变了很多，我差一点都认不出他们了！那时候我班也来了两个新学生，我忘了他们的名字了。一男一女。
上一天晚上我给刘雨晴打了电话，她告诉了我陶老师说我班同学必须要给我做一张贺卡。我当时就想，陶老师她好像不应该这样，人家不想就不想吧，只要他们不在欺负我就行了。所以那天等我离开教室的时候，好像每一个人都个我一张贺卡。我给每一个人美国25美分硬币。
陶老师让刘雨晴和她最好的朋友尹静跟我一块儿去看刘老师和郑老师。我问了问我能不能看清河一小我两个最好的朋友曹溪娟和张涵。我很高兴见到他们。她们俩不跟我一班。我们三个走得很快。我很高兴看刘老师和郑老师。之后我们又回到了教室，在我们回教室的路上，我们碰见了我四年级的语文李老师。我们说了说话。等我们回了教室，我们合了一张影。之后他们问我了我的电子邮件，我写在了黑板上。
等我们要走的时候，我很舍不得，但是我什么都没说。我那时候超想念郑老师。
下一站是福利院。我们坐在福利院的门口上。江阿姨问哪里的警察能不能让高阿姨出来。开始有一个阿姨问我我记得她吗？我当时很糊涂。我根本就没有见过她！他在说啥呢！我也不知道她为啥知道我。之后Amy就请阿姨让我见高阿姨因为我一年都没有见她了，Amy她这人可真好呀。然后高阿姨出来了，但是我不知道要说什么，哎呀真是的！我们照了照相，然后给了对方拥抱。等我们走了的时候，我很想去二儿福去看苏楠楠她们，但是妈妈说不行因为那个福利院说不行。真实的。
下一站是水立方和鸟巢。里面倒挺好看的。
这就是在中国的第14天，也就是在北京的第二天。
In 2013 December 13 we went to four places: Hutong, Qinghe #1 (my school), Beijing Orphanage, Water Cube and Bird Nest.
That day in the morning we went went to Hu tong. We liked it very much. We rode in a bicycle taxi:
We talked to the some of people. Amy is the most talkative. I really want to be like Amy know how to talk. We were pretty happy. Sometimes Amy even let the person go front of Joy and Mom (we rode in two bicycles, one is Amy and I, other is Joy and mom), so fun.
Then we went to the drum tower. When they finished performance, we asked Amy how many durums there are. She said five and the middle is the bigger one. (She was right.)
At noon we went to Qinghe #1. My classmates were in sixth grade. My Chinese teachers and classmates were very happy. When I got out of the car, I saw my morality teacher Mr. Yue. When I was about to go into the classroom, Amy didn't want to come in, I didn't know why. I tried to encourage her, she finally came in, but didn't know why she wasn't very happy. Those students asked me a lot of questions, and I answered them. Many of them changed a lot, I almost didn't recognize them! My class also had two new students, I forget their names. One was girl and one was boy.
The night before I called my classmate, Liuyuqing. She told me that Mrs. Tao said that my classmates had to make me a card. I was thinking, Mrs. Tao shouldn't be that way, they don't want to they don't want to, at least they aren't going to bully me, that's a good thing. So that day when I leave the classroom, almost every student gave me card. I gave everyone American quarters.
Mrs. Tai let Liuyuqing and her best friend Yin Jing go see Mrs. Liu and Mrs. Zheng with me. I asked if I can go see my two best friends in Qinghe #1, Cao Xijuan and Zhang Han. I was very happy to see them. They weren't in the same class with me. Three of us (Liu Yuqing, Yin Jing and I) walked very fast. I was very happy to see Mrs. Liu and Mrs. Zheng. Then we went back to our classroom, on our way back, we bumped into my fourth grade Language Art teacher Mrs. Li. We talked a little bit. When we got back to the classroom, we took a group picture. Then they asked my email address, I wrote on blackboard.
When we had to go, I really didn't want to go, but I didn't say anything. I missed Mrs. Zheng so much.
Next stop was the orphanage. We sat at the door of the orphanage. Joy asked the police in there if they can let Nanny Gao to come out. At first there was a nanny asked me if I remember her or not. I was very confused. I never met her before! What was she talking about? I don't know why the nanny knows me. Then Amy started to ask that nanny if I can see Nanny Gao because I haven't see her for a year! Amy she is a such good person! Then Nanny Gao came out, but I didn't know what to said, Shoot! We took some pictures, then gave each other a hug. When we were leaving, I really wanted to go to Orphanage #2 to see Su Nannan and other, but mom said no because the orphanage said no. Shoot.
Next stop is Water cube and Bird Nest. Inside was very pretty.
This is the Water Cube that they used for the swimming and other water sport for olympics.
This is another olympic building that call Bird Nest that they used for other sport for summer olympics.
That was the 14th day in China, which is the second day in Beijing.
Thursday, March 12, 2015
Day 13- Landing In Beijing
第十三天－降落在北京
在2012年12月12日，我们飞到了北京。那一天我很高兴，因为下午我就要见到郑老师啦！
等我们飞到北京的时候，我们北京的翻译江阿姨在机场在等着我们。那时候我看见她了，我差点都认不出来是她了因为好长时间没有见她了！
在我们在车里的时候，江阿姨来电话了。我就跟Amy说：“是郑老师。”然后江阿姨立马就说：“对，是郑老师”Amy和我都很惊奇，她的耳朵那么的好呀！
到了家里的时候，江阿姨的先生跟 Amy 握了握手。之后我们就把我的东西放回去。江阿姨和叔叔跟Amy介绍了她家里都有什么。他们都很惊奇Amy的记忆力。
之后你猜怎么了？郑老师来了！我那时候高兴的不得了！等我们坐下的时候，Amy就开始跟郑老师汇报我是有多么地想她。我觉得Amy她这人可会把两个弄在一起了。我那时候倒是挺害羞的，不知道说什么。所以我们看着对方，微笑着。有时候我想说一件事儿，但是老是说不出来，所以我老说对不起。那天晚上我们就坐在那儿笑着。
之后江阿姨要出去做什么，所以她让我做翻译。我们去了下面玩乒乓球。哇，你知道吗，郑老师她这人可真好呀！她的乒乓球可好了！我的乒乓球倒不是特好。郑老师她试着教了教我，但我就是不会。
在我们吃饭的时候，叔叔他老是煮菜。我和Amy老请他吃饭，之后郑老师就说我很善良。我喜欢郑老师夸我。
郑老师那天送了我四本书。等她要走的时候，我正要想着跟郑老师拥抱江阿姨就催我。之后我和郑老师就拥抱了。现在望回想，这倒是挺好笑的。
虽然那天晚上是一个很开心的夜晚，但是不知道为什么我那时候很想念郑老师。我那时候真的等不及周五再见到她一面了！
在2012年12月12日，我们飞到了北京。那一天我很高兴，因为下午我就要见到郑老师啦！
等我们飞到北京的时候，我们北京的翻译江阿姨在机场在等着我们。那时候我看见她了，我差点都认不出来是她了因为好长时间没有见她了！
在我们在车里的时候，江阿姨来电话了。我就跟Amy说：“是郑老师。”然后江阿姨立马就说：“对，是郑老师”Amy和我都很惊奇，她的耳朵那么的好呀！
到了家里的时候，江阿姨的先生跟 Amy 握了握手。之后我们就把我的东西放回去。江阿姨和叔叔跟Amy介绍了她家里都有什么。他们都很惊奇Amy的记忆力。
之后你猜怎么了？郑老师来了！我那时候高兴的不得了！等我们坐下的时候，Amy就开始跟郑老师汇报我是有多么地想她。我觉得Amy她这人可会把两个弄在一起了。我那时候倒是挺害羞的，不知道说什么。所以我们看着对方，微笑着。有时候我想说一件事儿，但是老是说不出来，所以我老说对不起。那天晚上我们就坐在那儿笑着。
之后江阿姨要出去做什么，所以她让我做翻译。我们去了下面玩乒乓球。哇，你知道吗，郑老师她这人可真好呀！她的乒乓球可好了！我的乒乓球倒不是特好。郑老师她试着教了教我，但我就是不会。
在我们吃饭的时候，叔叔他老是煮菜。我和Amy老请他吃饭，之后郑老师就说我很善良。我喜欢郑老师夸我。
郑老师那天送了我四本书。等她要走的时候，我正要想着跟郑老师拥抱江阿姨就催我。之后我和郑老师就拥抱了。现在望回想，这倒是挺好笑的。
虽然那天晚上是一个很开心的夜晚，但是不知道为什么我那时候很想念郑老师。我那时候真的等不及周五再见到她一面了！
On December 12, 2012, we flew to Beijing. I was very happy
because that afternoon I was going to see Mrs. Zheng!
When we flew to Beijing, our Beijing translator Joy was in
the airport waiting for us. When I saw her, I almost didn’t know it was her because
I hadn’t seen her in so long!
When we were in the car, Joy got a phone call. I told Amy, “It’s
Mrs. Zheng.” Then Joy immediately said, “Yes, it’s Mrs. Zheng.” Amy and I were
very surprised, because her hearing was so good!
When we got “home”, Joy’s husband, Michael shook hands with
Amy. Then we put our stuff away. Joy & Michael showed Amy around the house.
They were very surprised at Amy’s memory.
And then guess what? Mrs. Zheng arrived! I was very happy!
When we sat down Amy started telling Mrs. Zheng about how much I missed her. I
think Amy is very good at putting two people together. I was pretty shy and
didn’t know what to say. So we just looked at each other, smiling. Sometimes I
wanted to say something, but I couldn’t say it so I would say, “sorry” instead.
That night we just sat there and laughed.
Then Joy had to go out and do something, so she let me do
the translating. We went to the basement and played Ping-Pong. Wow! Do you
know, Mrs. Zheng is very good. Her Ping-Pong skill was amazing! My skills weren’t
very good, so Mrs. Zheng tried to teach me, but I didn’t improve.
When we ate supper, Michael always stayed in the kitchen
cooking. Amy and I kept asking him to eat with us. Then Mrs. Zheng said I had
such a good heart. I liked when Mrs. Zheng complemented me.
Mrs. Zheng gave me 4 books that day. I was thinking about
hugging Mrs. Zheng when it was time for her to leave, but hesitated. Joy
encouraged me to give her a hug. So I did. Thinking back, it seems pretty
funny.
Even though that was a very happy night, I missed Mrs. Zheng
after she left. At that time, I couldn’t wait until Friday to see her again.
Sunday, March 8, 2015
Day 12- Exercise Park and Shopping
第十二天－健身公园和购物
我们那天一上午我们都在健身公园。我们俩最喜欢健身器了！在哪儿还有人唱戏。我听了听，我觉得还行吧。我这人不怎么喜欢戏。之后我给妈妈看了看我们中国的谱子，跟五线谱完全不一样。
（照片在下面）
下一站我们是找一种我很喜欢的头发东西。我问黄阿姨去哎呀呀，我们上一天已经去过了，但是我还想试试，因为那是另一个哎呀呀。等我进去的时候，我就问那里的阿姨有没有那个头发东西，结果我们终于找到了。（照片在下面）
之后我们会宾馆等黄阿姨给我们签证。在那几天在广州的时候，黄阿姨也学一些关于盲人的东西。我们都挺喜欢她的。
那天是我们在广州的最后一天，下一天我们去北京见郑老师。我那时候好兴奋呀！
That day we spent all morning in the exercise park. The exercise park was Amy’s and my favorite! In there they had people who acted in an opera. I listened to it; I thought it was okay. I don’t like opera very much. Then I showed mom some Chinese music sheet, it’s very different than the five music staff.
Next stop was to find a kind of hair stuff that I really like. I asked Helen to go to Aiyaya. We went there on the eleventh day, but I wanted to try again because that was a different Aiyaya. When we went in, I asked the people if they have that hair stuff there, then we finally found it!
Then we went back to the hotel to wait for Helen to give us Amy’s Visa. In those days in Guangzhou, Helen also learned something about being blind. We liked her fine.
That day was the last day we stayed in Guangzhou; the next day we would go to Beijing to see Mrs. Zheng. For that I was happy.
我们那天一上午我们都在健身公园。我们俩最喜欢健身器了！在哪儿还有人唱戏。我听了听，我觉得还行吧。我这人不怎么喜欢戏。之后我给妈妈看了看我们中国的谱子，跟五线谱完全不一样。
（照片在下面）
下一站我们是找一种我很喜欢的头发东西。我问黄阿姨去哎呀呀，我们上一天已经去过了，但是我还想试试，因为那是另一个哎呀呀。等我进去的时候，我就问那里的阿姨有没有那个头发东西，结果我们终于找到了。（照片在下面）
之后我们会宾馆等黄阿姨给我们签证。在那几天在广州的时候，黄阿姨也学一些关于盲人的东西。我们都挺喜欢她的。
那天是我们在广州的最后一天，下一天我们去北京见郑老师。我那时候好兴奋呀！
That day we spent all morning in the exercise park. The exercise park was Amy’s and my favorite! In there they had people who acted in an opera. I listened to it; I thought it was okay. I don’t like opera very much. Then I showed mom some Chinese music sheet, it’s very different than the five music staff.
This is the music staff, they use character rather than notes.（这是中国谱子，他们用孩子）
This is the hair stuff that I like, this is use for pull your hair up. I like my hair up.（这是一个我喜欢的头发东西，这是用来把你的头的给弄上来，我喜欢我头发扎起来）
That day was the last day we stayed in Guangzhou; the next day we would go to Beijing to see Mrs. Zheng. For that I was happy.
Saturday, February 28, 2015
Day 9- Zoo and Phone Call
第九天－动物园和电话
周日我们去了动物园。那天我们很开心。那里的人很热闹。虽然Amy不能摸那些动物，但是她能听和闻那些动物的声音和味道，不过那些动物的味道不怎么好闻。
那有一个东西我在动物园我不喜欢，那儿说不能喂动物，可好像没有一个人把这个规则当成事儿，而且也没有人强制人们做那个规则说的。我对这个很不高兴。
有一次我们去看河马的时候，那儿有一个东西你可以读。所以我就读给Amy，当时黄阿姨就很惊奇。可我觉得这没有什么大不了的，我的记忆又不是那么不好。然后黄阿姨就说很多被收养的中国小孩都忘记很多的中文。我这才知道为什么很多的中国人很惊奇我的中文还在呀。但是，这也没有改变我对我中文的想法。我这人好像从来都没有对我自己很惊奇，因为我觉得那是应该得到的，或做到的。不过如果有时候我做错了事情或是做一件事情做的不是特好，我就觉得我很不好。而别人却觉得我做的也不是那么不好。我觉得我这人对我自己的期望比别人要更高一些。
那天下午我问了妈妈我能不能给郑老师和高阿姨打电话，妈妈说行。我当时就特高兴。我先给郑老师打电话，郑老师知道周五我会去看学校的，但是她觉得那个时间好像太短了，所以她就问我她能不能去江阿姨的家里跟我们吃晚饭。江阿姨是我们在北京的翻译而且我们住在她的家。我们在她家里吃早饭和晚饭。当时我就特高兴，真没想到郑老师会问我这个（是好事儿）。之后我给高阿姨电话。我问到我能不能见到她。她说我们不能私人见面，我当时不怎么高兴，我又不会闹着不回美国。真实的！高阿姨说等我到18岁了，那福利院就不能管我了，这倒是让我挺高兴的。高阿姨说我们能在福利院见面。等我打完了，我告诉妈妈我跟郑老师和高阿姨的通话，然后她就跟江阿姨发电子邮件。
我那时候特高兴，因为我很快就能见到郑老师啦！
On Sunday we went to the zoo. We were very happy on that day. It was very crowded in there. Even though Amy couldn’t touch the animals, she could listen and smell the animals, but the animals’ smell wasn’t very good.
There was one thing in the zoo that I didn’t like. It was obvious that you can’t throw food to the animals, but it seemed that nobody followed rule, and there wasn’t anyone to force people to follow the rule. That made me very unhappy.
One time we saw hippos, and there was a sign you could read, so I read it to Amy. At that time Helen was very surprised. However, I thought it wasn’t a big deal. My memory isn’t that bad. Then Helen said that there are many children who have been adopted from China who forgot their Chinese. At that time I knew why there were so many Chinese people who were very surprised at my Chinese. However, that didn’t change my thought about my Chinese. I am never surprise by myself, because I think that I am suppose to have it, or get done it. However, other people think I wasn’t doing that bad. I think I have higher expectations than other people.
That afternoon I asked mom if I could call Mrs. Zheng and Nanny Gao. Mom said yes. At that time I was very happy. I first called Mrs. Zheng, Mrs. Zheng knew on Friday I was going to visit school, but she thought the time is too short, so she asked me if she could come to Joy’s house to eat supper with us. Joy was our translator in Beijing and we lived in her house. We ate breakfast everyday and supper one night at her house. At that time I was very happy, couldn’t image that Mrs. Zheng would ask me about that (in a good way). Then I called Nanny Gao. I asked if I could see her. She said we can’t see each other in private. I wasn’t very happy at that time. I wasn’t going to cry to not going with mom to America. . Shoot! Nanny Gao said when I am 18, then the orphanage couldn’t control me. That made me pretty happy. Nanny Gao said that we could see each other in the orphanage,.When I finished, I told mom the conversation with Mrs. Zheng and Nanny Gao, then she send email to Joy.
I was so happy at that time, because soon I could see Mrs. Zheng!
周日我们去了动物园。那天我们很开心。那里的人很热闹。虽然Amy不能摸那些动物，但是她能听和闻那些动物的声音和味道，不过那些动物的味道不怎么好闻。
那有一个东西我在动物园我不喜欢，那儿说不能喂动物，可好像没有一个人把这个规则当成事儿，而且也没有人强制人们做那个规则说的。我对这个很不高兴。
有一次我们去看河马的时候，那儿有一个东西你可以读。所以我就读给Amy，当时黄阿姨就很惊奇。可我觉得这没有什么大不了的，我的记忆又不是那么不好。然后黄阿姨就说很多被收养的中国小孩都忘记很多的中文。我这才知道为什么很多的中国人很惊奇我的中文还在呀。但是，这也没有改变我对我中文的想法。我这人好像从来都没有对我自己很惊奇，因为我觉得那是应该得到的，或做到的。不过如果有时候我做错了事情或是做一件事情做的不是特好，我就觉得我很不好。而别人却觉得我做的也不是那么不好。我觉得我这人对我自己的期望比别人要更高一些。
那天下午我问了妈妈我能不能给郑老师和高阿姨打电话，妈妈说行。我当时就特高兴。我先给郑老师打电话，郑老师知道周五我会去看学校的，但是她觉得那个时间好像太短了，所以她就问我她能不能去江阿姨的家里跟我们吃晚饭。江阿姨是我们在北京的翻译而且我们住在她的家。我们在她家里吃早饭和晚饭。当时我就特高兴，真没想到郑老师会问我这个（是好事儿）。之后我给高阿姨电话。我问到我能不能见到她。她说我们不能私人见面，我当时不怎么高兴，我又不会闹着不回美国。真实的！高阿姨说等我到18岁了，那福利院就不能管我了，这倒是让我挺高兴的。高阿姨说我们能在福利院见面。等我打完了，我告诉妈妈我跟郑老师和高阿姨的通话，然后她就跟江阿姨发电子邮件。
我那时候特高兴，因为我很快就能见到郑老师啦！
There was one thing in the zoo that I didn’t like. It was obvious that you can’t throw food to the animals, but it seemed that nobody followed rule, and there wasn’t anyone to force people to follow the rule. That made me very unhappy.
One time we saw hippos, and there was a sign you could read, so I read it to Amy. At that time Helen was very surprised. However, I thought it wasn’t a big deal. My memory isn’t that bad. Then Helen said that there are many children who have been adopted from China who forgot their Chinese. At that time I knew why there were so many Chinese people who were very surprised at my Chinese. However, that didn’t change my thought about my Chinese. I am never surprise by myself, because I think that I am suppose to have it, or get done it. However, other people think I wasn’t doing that bad. I think I have higher expectations than other people.
That afternoon I asked mom if I could call Mrs. Zheng and Nanny Gao. Mom said yes. At that time I was very happy. I first called Mrs. Zheng, Mrs. Zheng knew on Friday I was going to visit school, but she thought the time is too short, so she asked me if she could come to Joy’s house to eat supper with us. Joy was our translator in Beijing and we lived in her house. We ate breakfast everyday and supper one night at her house. At that time I was very happy, couldn’t image that Mrs. Zheng would ask me about that (in a good way). Then I called Nanny Gao. I asked if I could see her. She said we can’t see each other in private. I wasn’t very happy at that time. I wasn’t going to cry to not going with mom to America. . Shoot! Nanny Gao said when I am 18, then the orphanage couldn’t control me. That made me pretty happy. Nanny Gao said that we could see each other in the orphanage,.When I finished, I told mom the conversation with Mrs. Zheng and Nanny Gao, then she send email to Joy.
I was so happy at that time, because soon I could see Mrs. Zheng!
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
Last day in Qinghe #1
在清河一小的最后一天
2012年2月17日星期五是我在清河一小的最后一天。对我来说，那是一个很好的最后一天。我很惊奇我班同学是怎么反应的，但我很高兴。
在我上学之前，区长魏阿姨告诉一个给我照相机（我在新的地方）。那个阿姨给我试了试。我问我班里最好的朋友如果我应不应该照相。她不知道。所以我就没做。不过我倒是挺后悔我没有做，我真希望我的胆子能大一点。但是我告诉他我的计划关于我们要做什么。我想她跟我一起去郑老师的办公室去问郑老师跟我合影。她说行。
在早上我们做早自习的时候，那个我不喜欢的女孩（新学生）走到我这儿，然后告诉我在第一个课后去她那儿。我很惊奇因为她一点都不喜欢我。
当我走到她那儿，她给我她的电话号码和一个玩具。我在班里最好的朋友，刘雨晴，也给我一些糖和玩具。我很高兴。
我的班主任陶老师给我买了一本书，然后她让我全班同学签字（写祝福语）。等我吃完饭了，她就把这本书给了我。在下课的时候，所有的同学都来到我拿给我留电话号码。我那天出去的次数不是很多因为没给人来到我们然后我就让他们写下他们的电话号码。
那里有一个男孩叫潘占勇。他的语文老师不怎么喜欢他。我们俩在二三年级的时候有同样的语文老师。他老会开玩笑说如果他去美国了，张老师会掌声鼓掌，而且她会很开心。所以我也会开同样的玩笑。我会说如果我去美国的话，我的同学会掌声鼓掌而且他们会很高兴。但是，这美国发生。在我在学校的最后一天，每个人都对我很我，没有一个人跟我说我的坏话。这让我很惊奇。
我也得到了郑老师的电话号码！我应该谢谢刘雨晴因为他告诉郑老师我很想要她的电话号码！她只我有一点点害怕。我很高兴郑老师给我了她的电话号码。
你还记得我原来的计划吗。陶老师不想让刘雨晴跟我一块去因为她要回家了。所以我就自己去了，不过我心事蹦蹦的跳。郑老师好像很高兴愿意跟我合影。她还夸了夸我。
2012年2月17日星期五是我在清河一小的最后一天。对我来说，那是一个很好的最后一天。我很惊奇我班同学是怎么反应的，但我很高兴。
在我上学之前，区长魏阿姨告诉一个给我照相机（我在新的地方）。那个阿姨给我试了试。我问我班里最好的朋友如果我应不应该照相。她不知道。所以我就没做。不过我倒是挺后悔我没有做，我真希望我的胆子能大一点。但是我告诉他我的计划关于我们要做什么。我想她跟我一起去郑老师的办公室去问郑老师跟我合影。她说行。
在早上我们做早自习的时候，那个我不喜欢的女孩（新学生）走到我这儿，然后告诉我在第一个课后去她那儿。我很惊奇因为她一点都不喜欢我。
当我走到她那儿，她给我她的电话号码和一个玩具。我在班里最好的朋友，刘雨晴，也给我一些糖和玩具。我很高兴。
我的班主任陶老师给我买了一本书，然后她让我全班同学签字（写祝福语）。等我吃完饭了，她就把这本书给了我。在下课的时候，所有的同学都来到我拿给我留电话号码。我那天出去的次数不是很多因为没给人来到我们然后我就让他们写下他们的电话号码。
那里有一个男孩叫潘占勇。他的语文老师不怎么喜欢他。我们俩在二三年级的时候有同样的语文老师。他老会开玩笑说如果他去美国了，张老师会掌声鼓掌，而且她会很开心。所以我也会开同样的玩笑。我会说如果我去美国的话，我的同学会掌声鼓掌而且他们会很高兴。但是，这美国发生。在我在学校的最后一天，每个人都对我很我，没有一个人跟我说我的坏话。这让我很惊奇。
我也得到了郑老师的电话号码！我应该谢谢刘雨晴因为他告诉郑老师我很想要她的电话号码！她只我有一点点害怕。我很高兴郑老师给我了她的电话号码。
你还记得我原来的计划吗。陶老师不想让刘雨晴跟我一块去因为她要回家了。所以我就自己去了，不过我心事蹦蹦的跳。郑老师好像很高兴愿意跟我合影。她还夸了夸我。
当我放学了，我很高兴因为我有我和郑老师的合影！在福利院有些阿姨跟我照了相。我也跟我朋友合了影。我把我的照片下到PSP。因为我想照照片，魏阿姨在福利院待长一点时间。我得为了这个谢谢她。然后我朋友给我做了一些卡和首饰。
在晚上我把郑老师的照片给我朋友看了看。然后我就跟我的朋友待在一起。
在晚上我把郑老师的照片给我朋友看了看。然后我就跟我的朋友待在一起。
Friday, 2-17-2012, was my last day in Qinghe#1. It was a very good last day for me. I was a little surprised at how my classmates responded, but I was very happy.
Before I went to school, the supervisor nanny Wei told a nanny to gave me the camera (I mentioned in new area). The nanny tested one picture on me. I asked my best friend in my class if I should take pictures. She didn't know. So I didn't. Although now I'm feel little sorry that I didn't, I wish I could be a bolder person. However, I told her my plan about what to do. I wanted her to come with me to Mrs. Zheng office to ask Mrs. Zheng to take a picture with me. She said ok.
In the morning when we were having a morning drill, the girl that I really don't like (new student) came over to me and told me after first period she wanted me to come over to them. I was little bit surprise because she didn't like me at all.
When I came over to her, she gave me her phone number and one toy. My best friend in my classmate, Liu Yuqing, give me some candy and toys too. I was very happy.
My home room teacher Mrs. Tao bought a book and let all my classmates sign it. She gave the book to me after lunch. During breaks, all of my classmates came to me and gave me their phone number. I didn't go out at all because everybody came to me and I just let them write down their phone number.
There was a boy named Pan Zhanyong. His Language Art teacher doesn't like him very much. We had same Language Art teacher in second and third grade. He was always joking that if he went to America, Mrs. Zhang would clap her hands and be very happy. So I also would joked the same thing. I would joked that if I went to America, my classmates will clap their hands and will be super happy! However, it didn't turn out that way. On my last day of school, everybody was nice to me and nobody said a mean thing to me. Which to me was a big surprise!
I also got Mrs. Zheng's phone number! I should thank Liu Yuqing because she told Mrs. Zheng that I really wanted her phone number! She knew I was little afraid. I was very happy that Mrs. Zheng gave me the phone number!
Do you remember my original plan for this day? Well, Mrs. Tao didn't want Liu Yuqing to come with me because she had to go home. So I went by myself and my heart was pumping very fast. Mrs. Zheng seemed very happy that I asked her to take a picture with me. She also said some good things about me!
At the end of school, I was very happy because I had a picture of me with Mrs. Zheng! At the orphanage some of the nannies took some pictures with me. I also took pictures of some of my friends. My pictures were loaded on my PSP. Because of me, nanny Wei stay longer at the orphanage. I have to thank to her about that. Then my friends makes some cards for me and gave me some jewelries.
At the end of day I showed Mrs. Zheng's picture to my friend. The rest of the night I spent with my friend.
Before I went to school, the supervisor nanny Wei told a nanny to gave me the camera (I mentioned in new area). The nanny tested one picture on me. I asked my best friend in my class if I should take pictures. She didn't know. So I didn't. Although now I'm feel little sorry that I didn't, I wish I could be a bolder person. However, I told her my plan about what to do. I wanted her to come with me to Mrs. Zheng office to ask Mrs. Zheng to take a picture with me. She said ok.
In the morning when we were having a morning drill, the girl that I really don't like (new student) came over to me and told me after first period she wanted me to come over to them. I was little bit surprise because she didn't like me at all.
When I came over to her, she gave me her phone number and one toy. My best friend in my classmate, Liu Yuqing, give me some candy and toys too. I was very happy.
My home room teacher Mrs. Tao bought a book and let all my classmates sign it. She gave the book to me after lunch. During breaks, all of my classmates came to me and gave me their phone number. I didn't go out at all because everybody came to me and I just let them write down their phone number.
There was a boy named Pan Zhanyong. His Language Art teacher doesn't like him very much. We had same Language Art teacher in second and third grade. He was always joking that if he went to America, Mrs. Zhang would clap her hands and be very happy. So I also would joked the same thing. I would joked that if I went to America, my classmates will clap their hands and will be super happy! However, it didn't turn out that way. On my last day of school, everybody was nice to me and nobody said a mean thing to me. Which to me was a big surprise!
I also got Mrs. Zheng's phone number! I should thank Liu Yuqing because she told Mrs. Zheng that I really wanted her phone number! She knew I was little afraid. I was very happy that Mrs. Zheng gave me the phone number!
Do you remember my original plan for this day? Well, Mrs. Tao didn't want Liu Yuqing to come with me because she had to go home. So I went by myself and my heart was pumping very fast. Mrs. Zheng seemed very happy that I asked her to take a picture with me. She also said some good things about me!
At the end of school, I was very happy because I had a picture of me with Mrs. Zheng! At the orphanage some of the nannies took some pictures with me. I also took pictures of some of my friends. My pictures were loaded on my PSP. Because of me, nanny Wei stay longer at the orphanage. I have to thank to her about that. Then my friends makes some cards for me and gave me some jewelries.
At the end of day I showed Mrs. Zheng's picture to my friend. The rest of the night I spent with my friend.
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
Last Week in Qinghe#1
在清河一小的最后一个星期
在2012年2月的第三个星期，我们开始上学了。这是我第一个星期上学，也是我最后一个星期在清河一小。
在周日我们回校去哪我们四年级下册的书。没有什么特别的事儿发生除了我看见了郑老师。
在星期一的时候我有PPD。丁姐姐过来接我。我很兴奋。当我回来的时候，悦老师就问我如果我是不是要有家了。我说是。
因为我做了PPD，我错过了一些英语作业。在清河一小，我们的主课是语文，数学，和英语。我们每天都有数学和英语，一个星期有两个英语课。当我们有大考试的话，我们老是考这三个科目。我没有很多的考试，一年只有六个考试。
周二当我写完了我的英语作业，然后交给我的英语张老师，她问我什么时候走。我说可能五月吧，因我那些阿姨说当我弄完了PPD，我得要等两三个月。
然后在周四，我会去检查了我的PPD。我的PPD不是很好因为我老是挠我的胳膊。做PPD是很痒的。那天早上我没有去学校。当我要去查我PPD的时候，我听见阿姨们说星期天我会被收养。那时候我就：哇，那么快，我以为我得等两三个月呢。那也挺好的因为我可以跟我的朋友，阿姨，和老师在一起的时间长点。
我也有X－光，那是在一个很大的楼房。所以我就想：或许我的家长已经在中国了，而且他们在那里设置了一个照相头。这样他们就知道我完成了我的X－光了。可能这就是为什么他们那么快就要接我了。
我有家的事情在学校传的很快。我所有的同学很大多数的老师都知道了。我四年级的语文老师祝福了我然后对我微笑。自从三年级的时候，那是她第一次对我微笑。当她当了我的老师之前她挺喜欢我的。当她当了我的老师之后，她不怎么喜欢我了，因为我的语文很不好，她好像不怎么喜欢我了，但是我想我二三年级的老师，她好像挺讨厌我的。
在周四下午。每个人知道我星期五是我在清河一小的最后一天，而且每个人都知道我最喜欢的老师是郑老师。所以有一个男孩跟我开玩笑：“明天你要看郑老师看的够呀！”我很告诉因为我很喜欢郑老师。
回头我会告诉你们我在清河一小的最后一天。
In the third week February of 2012, we started school. This was my first week of school, it was also was my last week in Qinghe#1.
We went back to school on Sunday to get our book for fourth grade second semester. Nothing really special on Sunday except I saw Mrs. Zheng.
On Monday, I had a PPD. The sister Ding picked me up. In the orphanage nannies that are very young, we call them sister. I was very excited. When I came back, Mr. Yue asked me if I was going to having family, I said yes.
Because I did PPD, I missed some of the English classwork. In Qinghe#1, our main classes were Language Art, math, and English. We had Language Art and math everyday, and English two classes a week. When we had a big test, we always tested those three subjects. We didn't have a lot of tests, one year we only had six big tests.
When I finished my English classwork on Tuesday and gave it to the English teacher Mrs. Zhang, she asked what time I was going to leave. I said maybe in May, because the nannies said you will be adopted two or three months after you have the PPD test.
Then on Thursday, I went back to check my PPD. My PPD wasn't really good because I scratched a lot. Doing PPD is very itchy. That morning I didn't go to school. When I was about to leave to check my PPD, I heard the nannies say I was going to be adopted this Sunday. At that time I thought: Wow, that's so fast, I thought I had to wait another two or three months! Which was good because I can stay with my friends, nannies, and teachers longer.
I also had a X-ray, and it was in a big building. So I thought: Maybe my parents were already in China, and they put a camera in there. That's how they know I finished X-ray. Maybe that's why they came to get me so fast.
My news about having family spread fast in school. All of my classmates and most of my teachers knew. My fourth grade Language Art teacher blessed me and smiled at me. I was pretty happy. It was her first smile since I was in third grade. She liked me before she became my teacher. After she became my teacher, because my Language Art was so bad, she seemed not to like me anymore, but she didn't like my second and third teacher who seemed to hate me.
On Thursday afternoon, everybody knew that Friday was my last day in Qinghe #1, and everybody knew that my favorite teacher was Mrs. Zheng. So there was one boy who joked to me, "Tomorrow you will see Mrs. Zheng as many times as you want!" I was very happy because I like Mrs. Zheng very much.
Next I will tell you my last day in Qinghe#1.
在2012年2月的第三个星期，我们开始上学了。这是我第一个星期上学，也是我最后一个星期在清河一小。
在周日我们回校去哪我们四年级下册的书。没有什么特别的事儿发生除了我看见了郑老师。
在星期一的时候我有PPD。丁姐姐过来接我。我很兴奋。当我回来的时候，悦老师就问我如果我是不是要有家了。我说是。
因为我做了PPD，我错过了一些英语作业。在清河一小，我们的主课是语文，数学，和英语。我们每天都有数学和英语，一个星期有两个英语课。当我们有大考试的话，我们老是考这三个科目。我没有很多的考试，一年只有六个考试。
周二当我写完了我的英语作业，然后交给我的英语张老师，她问我什么时候走。我说可能五月吧，因我那些阿姨说当我弄完了PPD，我得要等两三个月。
然后在周四，我会去检查了我的PPD。我的PPD不是很好因为我老是挠我的胳膊。做PPD是很痒的。那天早上我没有去学校。当我要去查我PPD的时候，我听见阿姨们说星期天我会被收养。那时候我就：哇，那么快，我以为我得等两三个月呢。那也挺好的因为我可以跟我的朋友，阿姨，和老师在一起的时间长点。
我也有X－光，那是在一个很大的楼房。所以我就想：或许我的家长已经在中国了，而且他们在那里设置了一个照相头。这样他们就知道我完成了我的X－光了。可能这就是为什么他们那么快就要接我了。
我有家的事情在学校传的很快。我所有的同学很大多数的老师都知道了。我四年级的语文老师祝福了我然后对我微笑。自从三年级的时候，那是她第一次对我微笑。当她当了我的老师之前她挺喜欢我的。当她当了我的老师之后，她不怎么喜欢我了，因为我的语文很不好，她好像不怎么喜欢我了，但是我想我二三年级的老师，她好像挺讨厌我的。
在周四下午。每个人知道我星期五是我在清河一小的最后一天，而且每个人都知道我最喜欢的老师是郑老师。所以有一个男孩跟我开玩笑：“明天你要看郑老师看的够呀！”我很告诉因为我很喜欢郑老师。
回头我会告诉你们我在清河一小的最后一天。
In the third week February of 2012, we started school. This was my first week of school, it was also was my last week in Qinghe#1.
We went back to school on Sunday to get our book for fourth grade second semester. Nothing really special on Sunday except I saw Mrs. Zheng.
On Monday, I had a PPD. The sister Ding picked me up. In the orphanage nannies that are very young, we call them sister. I was very excited. When I came back, Mr. Yue asked me if I was going to having family, I said yes.
Because I did PPD, I missed some of the English classwork. In Qinghe#1, our main classes were Language Art, math, and English. We had Language Art and math everyday, and English two classes a week. When we had a big test, we always tested those three subjects. We didn't have a lot of tests, one year we only had six big tests.
When I finished my English classwork on Tuesday and gave it to the English teacher Mrs. Zhang, she asked what time I was going to leave. I said maybe in May, because the nannies said you will be adopted two or three months after you have the PPD test.
Then on Thursday, I went back to check my PPD. My PPD wasn't really good because I scratched a lot. Doing PPD is very itchy. That morning I didn't go to school. When I was about to leave to check my PPD, I heard the nannies say I was going to be adopted this Sunday. At that time I thought: Wow, that's so fast, I thought I had to wait another two or three months! Which was good because I can stay with my friends, nannies, and teachers longer.
I also had a X-ray, and it was in a big building. So I thought: Maybe my parents were already in China, and they put a camera in there. That's how they know I finished X-ray. Maybe that's why they came to get me so fast.
My news about having family spread fast in school. All of my classmates and most of my teachers knew. My fourth grade Language Art teacher blessed me and smiled at me. I was pretty happy. It was her first smile since I was in third grade. She liked me before she became my teacher. After she became my teacher, because my Language Art was so bad, she seemed not to like me anymore, but she didn't like my second and third teacher who seemed to hate me.
On Thursday afternoon, everybody knew that Friday was my last day in Qinghe #1, and everybody knew that my favorite teacher was Mrs. Zheng. So there was one boy who joked to me, "Tomorrow you will see Mrs. Zheng as many times as you want!" I was very happy because I like Mrs. Zheng very much.
Next I will tell you my last day in Qinghe#1.
Sunday, November 30, 2014
New Area
新的地方
福利院的孩子是分成几个区根据他们的年纪和能力。我住的地区是教育二区，那里有最大和最有能力的孩子。我们在福利院搬了三次。在第三次的时候，我们教育二区跟教育一区并合了。教育一区的孩子是福利院第二大的很第二最有能力的。当我们并拢了，我们有两倍的孩子。我们能有60个孩子吧。我们是“特殊教育区”
在我们搬到特殊教育的时候，那里有好多的女生在我们睡屋。有一个女孩她老爱笑。她每时每刻都在笑而且没人知道她在笑什么。她的名字叫水雅茹。我们有点烦和不高兴因为我想正要睡觉呢。有时候她喝药的时候都不能停止笑。现在我回想，我觉得我很坏。为什么她的笑让我觉得很烦？我应该试着去理解，这可是能她的残疾一部分吧。但是，我把人看成人，我一般都不会看他们的残疾的。有时候我觉得我是一个很消极的人，这是事实因为我看什么都是要看不好的一处。
那里也有一个女孩爱笑，但不像水雅茹一样。她的名字是水伊利。后来我和她们两个成为了朋友而且我改变了我对她们的看法。
因为我们搬到另一个地方，而且我们的区也很大，我们的地区有两个区长。一个是魏阿姨，一个是李阿姨。她们两个我都喜欢。有一次我问魏阿姨关于当我们学校去春游的话，我能不能有一个照相机。她答应了我。原因我问这个是因为我已经知道我有家了，所以如果我能有一些照片的话，这会是一个很好的记忆。
我们的区住在两层楼。我们住在第二层和第三层。第二层是学习和玩游戏的的楼层。第三层是看电视和睡觉的楼层。
阿姨也增加了两倍。有些阿姨很喜欢我。我也很喜欢她们。
The kids in the orphanage were divided into groups based on age and ability. The group I lived in was for the oldest and kids with the most ability in the orphanage. We moved to a different building three times. On the third time, our group and another group who were the second oldest and have second most ability moved together. After we became one group, we had twice as many, probably 60 kids. We were call the "Special Group"
The first night we moved to the special group, there were a lot of girls in our room. There was a girl who laughed a lot. She laughed all the time and nobody knew what she was laughing about. Her name is Shui Yaru. We were a little tired and unhappy because we were trying to sleep! Sometimes she was taking medicine, and she still couldn't stop laughing. Right now thinking back, I think that I am a very bad person. Why her laugh bother me? I should try to understand, maybe that's part of her disability. However, I see people as people. I usually don't see their disability. Sometimes I think I am very negative person, which was true because I always think negative about things.
There was another girl who also liked to laugh, but not as much as Shui Yaru. Her name is Shui Yili. Later I became friends with both of them and I changed my view about them.
Because we moved into a new area with a larger group, our group had two supervisors instead one. One is nanny Wei, one is nanny Li. I liked both of them. One time I asked nanny Wei about having a camera when we went on a field trip in school. She said yes. She said yes to it. The reason I asked is because I know I have a family, so if I could have some pictures, that will be a great memory.
Our group lived on two floors. We lived on the second and third floor. Second floor is the study and play floor. Third floor is watching TV and sleeping floor.
The nannies are double too. Some of the nannies liked me very much. I liked them very much too!
福利院的孩子是分成几个区根据他们的年纪和能力。我住的地区是教育二区，那里有最大和最有能力的孩子。我们在福利院搬了三次。在第三次的时候，我们教育二区跟教育一区并合了。教育一区的孩子是福利院第二大的很第二最有能力的。当我们并拢了，我们有两倍的孩子。我们能有60个孩子吧。我们是“特殊教育区”
在我们搬到特殊教育的时候，那里有好多的女生在我们睡屋。有一个女孩她老爱笑。她每时每刻都在笑而且没人知道她在笑什么。她的名字叫水雅茹。我们有点烦和不高兴因为我想正要睡觉呢。有时候她喝药的时候都不能停止笑。现在我回想，我觉得我很坏。为什么她的笑让我觉得很烦？我应该试着去理解，这可是能她的残疾一部分吧。但是，我把人看成人，我一般都不会看他们的残疾的。有时候我觉得我是一个很消极的人，这是事实因为我看什么都是要看不好的一处。
那里也有一个女孩爱笑，但不像水雅茹一样。她的名字是水伊利。后来我和她们两个成为了朋友而且我改变了我对她们的看法。
因为我们搬到另一个地方，而且我们的区也很大，我们的地区有两个区长。一个是魏阿姨，一个是李阿姨。她们两个我都喜欢。有一次我问魏阿姨关于当我们学校去春游的话，我能不能有一个照相机。她答应了我。原因我问这个是因为我已经知道我有家了，所以如果我能有一些照片的话，这会是一个很好的记忆。
我们的区住在两层楼。我们住在第二层和第三层。第二层是学习和玩游戏的的楼层。第三层是看电视和睡觉的楼层。
阿姨也增加了两倍。有些阿姨很喜欢我。我也很喜欢她们。
The kids in the orphanage were divided into groups based on age and ability. The group I lived in was for the oldest and kids with the most ability in the orphanage. We moved to a different building three times. On the third time, our group and another group who were the second oldest and have second most ability moved together. After we became one group, we had twice as many, probably 60 kids. We were call the "Special Group"
The first night we moved to the special group, there were a lot of girls in our room. There was a girl who laughed a lot. She laughed all the time and nobody knew what she was laughing about. Her name is Shui Yaru. We were a little tired and unhappy because we were trying to sleep! Sometimes she was taking medicine, and she still couldn't stop laughing. Right now thinking back, I think that I am a very bad person. Why her laugh bother me? I should try to understand, maybe that's part of her disability. However, I see people as people. I usually don't see their disability. Sometimes I think I am very negative person, which was true because I always think negative about things.
There was another girl who also liked to laugh, but not as much as Shui Yaru. Her name is Shui Yili. Later I became friends with both of them and I changed my view about them.
Because we moved into a new area with a larger group, our group had two supervisors instead one. One is nanny Wei, one is nanny Li. I liked both of them. One time I asked nanny Wei about having a camera when we went on a field trip in school. She said yes. She said yes to it. The reason I asked is because I know I have a family, so if I could have some pictures, that will be a great memory.
Our group lived on two floors. We lived on the second and third floor. Second floor is the study and play floor. Third floor is watching TV and sleeping floor.
The nannies are double too. Some of the nannies liked me very much. I liked them very much too!
Saturday, November 29, 2014
Secret Phone Call
秘密的电话
我们福利院里的电话没有外线。不过，这并不是事实。有一次我去了一个教室，那里有几个男孩在打电话。那时候我就知道那个电话室外线的。所以我就试了试给我班里最好的朋友打电话。我打错了电话号码好几次，但是最后我做到了。
In the orphanage, we don't have an outside phone connection. Well, that's not really true. One time I went to a room, and there is a couple of boys were making phone call. That's when I knew that phone have an outside. So I just try to call my best friend in my class. I hit the wrong number a lot of times, but finally, I made!
我们福利院里的电话没有外线。不过，这并不是事实。有一次我去了一个教室，那里有几个男孩在打电话。那时候我就知道那个电话室外线的。所以我就试了试给我班里最好的朋友打电话。我打错了电话号码好几次，但是最后我做到了。
然后一个男孩给他的寄养家庭打电话，我们都知道因为她哭了。不过只有那些大孩子知道，那些阿姨根本一点都不知道。
所以我就开始打电话了，而且我给我的寄养家庭打电话。我们已经很长时间没有跟对方说话。我挺想他们的。然后我就开始给我班最好的朋友打电话。我们的打电话的时候是很有趣的。我们没有告诉阿姨们因为我们知道我们会闯祸的。
但是，那个秘密并没包多久。有一次韩阿姨告诉我我的寄养父母告诉了他们我们给他们打电话了。糟了，我们闯祸了。她问我这是不是事实。我点了头。
所以我就开始打电话了，而且我给我的寄养家庭打电话。我们已经很长时间没有跟对方说话。我挺想他们的。然后我就开始给我班最好的朋友打电话。我们的打电话的时候是很有趣的。我们没有告诉阿姨们因为我们知道我们会闯祸的。
但是，那个秘密并没包多久。有一次韩阿姨告诉我我的寄养父母告诉了他们我们给他们打电话了。糟了，我们闯祸了。她问我这是不是事实。我点了头。
然后我就想：为什么他们不让我们给我们的寄养父母打电话？我们想我们的寄养父母。他们不能改变事实。为什么他们叫我们的寄养父母把我们留到福利院？我就是不知道为什么？我知道他们想让我们给我们美国的父母和好，但是在同时，我们也可以继续跟我们的给养父母联接呀。
从那以后，我没再也没有打电话了。
In the orphanage, we don't have an outside phone connection. Well, that's not really true. One time I went to a room, and there is a couple of boys were making phone call. That's when I knew that phone have an outside. So I just try to call my best friend in my class. I hit the wrong number a lot of times, but finally, I made!
Then there was one boy who made a phone call to his foster parents, we all knew because he was crying. Well, only the big kids knew, the nannies didn't know any of this.
So I started making phone calls, and I called my foster family. It had been a long time that we didn't talked to each other. I missed them. Then I call my best friend in my class. We had a very fun time making phone calls. We didn't tell the nannies because we knew then we were in trouble.
However, the secret didn't last for long. One time nanny Han told me that my foster parents told them that we had made phone calls. Uh-oh, we are in trouble. She ask me if this is true. I nod.
Then I was thinking: Why don't they let us make phone calls to our foster parents? We miss our foster parents. They can't change the fact. Why does the orphanage make the parents leave us in the orphanage? I just don't know why. I know they want us to get along with our American parents, but at the same time, we still can keep in touch with our foster parents.
After that, we never made phone calls again.
So I started making phone calls, and I called my foster family. It had been a long time that we didn't talked to each other. I missed them. Then I call my best friend in my class. We had a very fun time making phone calls. We didn't tell the nannies because we knew then we were in trouble.
However, the secret didn't last for long. One time nanny Han told me that my foster parents told them that we had made phone calls. Uh-oh, we are in trouble. She ask me if this is true. I nod.
Then I was thinking: Why don't they let us make phone calls to our foster parents? We miss our foster parents. They can't change the fact. Why does the orphanage make the parents leave us in the orphanage? I just don't know why. I know they want us to get along with our American parents, but at the same time, we still can keep in touch with our foster parents.
After that, we never made phone calls again.
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
New Students
新学生
当我去四年级的时候，所有的恶霸都渐渐消失了。那里不是有很多的恶霸，但是还有一些。
那儿有一个女孩我不喜欢（我在学校作业里面提到了她）。她老是在我后面说我坏话，那时候我离她也不是特远。有一次我告诉了老师，然后她说她再说其他的东西！当时我就想：“你以为我是笨蛋呀。我耳朵还挺好的。你不用在那儿装了！”我就是不喜欢她。她很吵，老是抱怨。有时候当该她的组干活的时候，她老师大声嚷嚷那些人然后告诉他们应该做什么。所有人都希望她可以闭上她的嘴。她就是特烦！
那还有一个同学也挺烦的。当我上四年级，他和另外一个男孩是新来的。但是另一个男孩很好，但他不是。
每次当我们要排队去体育或是运动的时候，他离我不远而且老是跟我说我的不好。我很不喜欢他。我都快要讨厌死他了，我真希望他可以一天不说话。
当我们运动的时候，他对我说：“不许碰我！”我想：“谁愿意碰你呀”有时候我不小心碰到他了，甚至有时候是他先碰我的，然后他说：“都告诉你了，不许碰我！”我很生气。那时候我的脸都充满了火而且我不能再忍了。
他也对不我公平。有一次在午餐的时候他（轻轻的）打了我而且告诉我我应该说对不起。我说这是意外。然后那儿有另一个女孩也碰到了他然后她跟他说对不起，然后他说没关系。之后我就问他为什么他没有打她。他说因为她说对不起了。我当时特不高兴而且我就是不能说对不起。他不能这样对人！他就是不能对一个人特怀，然后当另一个人来了，他就对她们就像他是一个很好的男孩，但他不是一个好男孩。不管是什么，我是不会说他是好人的。
现在我回想了，我可以就说对不起然后就走了。我可以听他们的话。有时候当我回想的时候我老是觉得我老乡别人的坏。或许有的阿姨是对的，我是有坏脾气的。
When I went to fourth grade, all the bullies faded away. There weren't too many bullies, but still some.
There was a girl that I really didn't like (I mentioned her in school work). She always was saying bad thing about me and I wasn't far away! One time I told the teacher, and she said she was saying other things! At that time I thought: "Do you think I'm stupid. My hearing is good. You don't need to pretend!" I just don't like her. She is noisy, always complaining. Sometimes when it was her group's turn to do chores, she was always yelling at the people and telling them what do to. Everybody wished that she could keep her mouth shut. She was so annoying!
There was a another classmate who were also very annoying. He and another boys was new to the school when I went to fourth grade. However, the other boy was very nice, but not him.
Every time we lined up to go to PE or do some exercise, he stood not too far from me and he would say bad things to me. I very very don't like him. I almost hated him. I wished he could stop talking for a day!
When we were doing exercise, he said to me, "Don't touch me!" I thought: "Who want to touch you anyway." Sometimes I accidentally bumped him and sometimes he bumped me first, and he said, "Told you, don't touch me!" I was so mad. At that time my face was fill up with fire and couldn't take in anymore.
He also treated me unfair. One time at lunch he hit me (gently) and told me that I should say sorry. I said it was accident. Then there was another girl who bumped into him and said sorry, and he said it's OK. Then I ask him why he didn't hit her. He said because she said sorry. I was so unhappy that I just can't say sorry. He can't treat people like that! He just can't treat one person really mean, and when another person come, he treat them like he was a very nice boy, which he was not! I would not say he was nice no matter what!
Now I'm thinking back, I could just say sorry and be done. I could listen to them. Sometimes when I think back I think I am always looking negative about people. Maybe some of the nannies are right, I am a quick temper.
当我去四年级的时候，所有的恶霸都渐渐消失了。那里不是有很多的恶霸，但是还有一些。
那儿有一个女孩我不喜欢（我在学校作业里面提到了她）。她老是在我后面说我坏话，那时候我离她也不是特远。有一次我告诉了老师，然后她说她再说其他的东西！当时我就想：“你以为我是笨蛋呀。我耳朵还挺好的。你不用在那儿装了！”我就是不喜欢她。她很吵，老是抱怨。有时候当该她的组干活的时候，她老师大声嚷嚷那些人然后告诉他们应该做什么。所有人都希望她可以闭上她的嘴。她就是特烦！
那还有一个同学也挺烦的。当我上四年级，他和另外一个男孩是新来的。但是另一个男孩很好，但他不是。
每次当我们要排队去体育或是运动的时候，他离我不远而且老是跟我说我的不好。我很不喜欢他。我都快要讨厌死他了，我真希望他可以一天不说话。
当我们运动的时候，他对我说：“不许碰我！”我想：“谁愿意碰你呀”有时候我不小心碰到他了，甚至有时候是他先碰我的，然后他说：“都告诉你了，不许碰我！”我很生气。那时候我的脸都充满了火而且我不能再忍了。
他也对不我公平。有一次在午餐的时候他（轻轻的）打了我而且告诉我我应该说对不起。我说这是意外。然后那儿有另一个女孩也碰到了他然后她跟他说对不起，然后他说没关系。之后我就问他为什么他没有打她。他说因为她说对不起了。我当时特不高兴而且我就是不能说对不起。他不能这样对人！他就是不能对一个人特怀，然后当另一个人来了，他就对她们就像他是一个很好的男孩，但他不是一个好男孩。不管是什么，我是不会说他是好人的。
现在我回想了，我可以就说对不起然后就走了。我可以听他们的话。有时候当我回想的时候我老是觉得我老乡别人的坏。或许有的阿姨是对的，我是有坏脾气的。
When I went to fourth grade, all the bullies faded away. There weren't too many bullies, but still some.
There was a girl that I really didn't like (I mentioned her in school work). She always was saying bad thing about me and I wasn't far away! One time I told the teacher, and she said she was saying other things! At that time I thought: "Do you think I'm stupid. My hearing is good. You don't need to pretend!" I just don't like her. She is noisy, always complaining. Sometimes when it was her group's turn to do chores, she was always yelling at the people and telling them what do to. Everybody wished that she could keep her mouth shut. She was so annoying!
There was a another classmate who were also very annoying. He and another boys was new to the school when I went to fourth grade. However, the other boy was very nice, but not him.
Every time we lined up to go to PE or do some exercise, he stood not too far from me and he would say bad things to me. I very very don't like him. I almost hated him. I wished he could stop talking for a day!
When we were doing exercise, he said to me, "Don't touch me!" I thought: "Who want to touch you anyway." Sometimes I accidentally bumped him and sometimes he bumped me first, and he said, "Told you, don't touch me!" I was so mad. At that time my face was fill up with fire and couldn't take in anymore.
He also treated me unfair. One time at lunch he hit me (gently) and told me that I should say sorry. I said it was accident. Then there was another girl who bumped into him and said sorry, and he said it's OK. Then I ask him why he didn't hit her. He said because she said sorry. I was so unhappy that I just can't say sorry. He can't treat people like that! He just can't treat one person really mean, and when another person come, he treat them like he was a very nice boy, which he was not! I would not say he was nice no matter what!
Now I'm thinking back, I could just say sorry and be done. I could listen to them. Sometimes when I think back I think I am always looking negative about people. Maybe some of the nannies are right, I am a quick temper.
Sunday, November 23, 2014
Let's Talk
让我们来谈谈
在二和三年级的时候，我有一个班主任刘老师，她倒是挺喜欢我的。她知道有些学生经常欺负我。当学生欺负我的时候，我一般都不会告诉老师因为即使如果我告诉了老师，他们也不会停止的。但是，我会告诉阿姨的。有一次我告诉了她们，有一个阿姨带我去告诉刘老师。第二天，刘老师告诉那些学生停止。
但是，学生并没有停止。有一次当我们下课的时候，有一个孩子正要用他的外衣打我，但是我没有让打到我。刘老师看见了而且她很不高兴。下一天在午餐的时候，她跟四个男孩说了话。我听见了他们的谈话。刘老师再问他们我身上那部分可怕。（我的同学老师对待我像一只老虎－他们一看见我就跑。）然后她会问另一个问题关于他们为什么对我不好。那些男孩什么都没说。
等午餐和教室的活弄完了，刘老师说今天她会说关于我的事儿。她告诉那些孩子他们应该对我好一点，然后说我是很有帮助的。（我喜欢帮助别人，所以刘老师让我擦黑板。我不是一个特别高的人，所以我就用一个凳子帮助我。有一次我差点摔倒了，所以她就让我干别的活。）当我说完了，我就流眼泪了。然后她就叫那四个男孩跟我说对不起，然后我说没关系。
当话说完了之后，所有人开始对我好了而且我很高兴。但是这件事没有坚持了很久。
In second and third grade, I had a homeroom teacher Mrs. Liu who liked me fine. She knows that some of the kids are bullying me. When the students bullied me, I usually didn't tell the teacher because even if I told the teacher, they weren't going to stop anyway. However, I would tell the nannies. One times when I told them, one of the nannies bring me to Mrs. Liu and told her. On second day, Mrs. Liu told the students to stop.
However, the students didn't. One time when class finished, one kid was going to use his coat to hit me, but I never let him. Mrs. Liu saw that and she was very unhappy. The next day at lunch, she talked to four of the boys. I heard the conversation. Mrs. Liu asked them which part of my body was scary. (My classmates always treated me like I'm a tiger - running away from me.) Then she asked another question about why they treated me badly. The boys were silent.
After lunch and all the classroom chores were done, Mrs. Liu said that today she was going to talk about me. She told the kids that they should be nice to me, and said I was very helpful. (I like to help people, so Mrs. Liu let me clean the blackboard. I am not a very tall person, so I used a chair to help. One time I almost fell, so she let me do other chores.) When she finished talking, my eyes were filled up. Then she told the four boys to say sorry to me, and I said it's ok.
After the talk, everybody started being nice to me and I was very happy. But this didn't last for very long.
在二和三年级的时候，我有一个班主任刘老师，她倒是挺喜欢我的。她知道有些学生经常欺负我。当学生欺负我的时候，我一般都不会告诉老师因为即使如果我告诉了老师，他们也不会停止的。但是，我会告诉阿姨的。有一次我告诉了她们，有一个阿姨带我去告诉刘老师。第二天，刘老师告诉那些学生停止。
但是，学生并没有停止。有一次当我们下课的时候，有一个孩子正要用他的外衣打我，但是我没有让打到我。刘老师看见了而且她很不高兴。下一天在午餐的时候，她跟四个男孩说了话。我听见了他们的谈话。刘老师再问他们我身上那部分可怕。（我的同学老师对待我像一只老虎－他们一看见我就跑。）然后她会问另一个问题关于他们为什么对我不好。那些男孩什么都没说。
等午餐和教室的活弄完了，刘老师说今天她会说关于我的事儿。她告诉那些孩子他们应该对我好一点，然后说我是很有帮助的。（我喜欢帮助别人，所以刘老师让我擦黑板。我不是一个特别高的人，所以我就用一个凳子帮助我。有一次我差点摔倒了，所以她就让我干别的活。）当我说完了，我就流眼泪了。然后她就叫那四个男孩跟我说对不起，然后我说没关系。
当话说完了之后，所有人开始对我好了而且我很高兴。但是这件事没有坚持了很久。
In second and third grade, I had a homeroom teacher Mrs. Liu who liked me fine. She knows that some of the kids are bullying me. When the students bullied me, I usually didn't tell the teacher because even if I told the teacher, they weren't going to stop anyway. However, I would tell the nannies. One times when I told them, one of the nannies bring me to Mrs. Liu and told her. On second day, Mrs. Liu told the students to stop.
However, the students didn't. One time when class finished, one kid was going to use his coat to hit me, but I never let him. Mrs. Liu saw that and she was very unhappy. The next day at lunch, she talked to four of the boys. I heard the conversation. Mrs. Liu asked them which part of my body was scary. (My classmates always treated me like I'm a tiger - running away from me.) Then she asked another question about why they treated me badly. The boys were silent.
After lunch and all the classroom chores were done, Mrs. Liu said that today she was going to talk about me. She told the kids that they should be nice to me, and said I was very helpful. (I like to help people, so Mrs. Liu let me clean the blackboard. I am not a very tall person, so I used a chair to help. One time I almost fell, so she let me do other chores.) When she finished talking, my eyes were filled up. Then she told the four boys to say sorry to me, and I said it's ok.
After the talk, everybody started being nice to me and I was very happy. But this didn't last for very long.
Friday, November 21, 2014
Work, Work, Work
工作，工作，工作
在中国我们有很多的家庭和课堂作业。对于课堂作业我也不是特不喜欢，但我非常不喜欢做家庭作业。
说到家庭作业，几乎每次都是我最后完成的。有时候我很妒忌他们可以玩，但我得需要完成作业。为什么我老是最后一个人完成作业？
我一年级的作业还行吧，对我来说也不是特多。当我上二年级的时候，张老师给我们留了好多作业。她让我们抄两三页的作文，然后抄诗歌四或五次，还有词语几次。
这对于我来说是很多的作业。一般我到8点或9点才完成。大多次都是我最后完成作业的。我非常不高兴因为别的孩子在玩而我却要完成我的作业。
在上学的早上我老是抱怨语文张老师给我们的作业有多多。然后她就问：“我留的作业多吗？”然后她问其中一个快的学生什么是时候完成的，他们回答7点。他们当然完成得早，他们写字的速度比我要快得多了。
其实他们是有一点点害怕张老师，我也是一样。当我们做错了什么东西，她会老是动手的方法训我们。所以，没有一个人会找机会招惹她。
三年级的时候我有同样多的作业。当我上四年级的时候，我们换了一个语文老师而且她留的作业不怎么多。但也不是很少。
现在说说课堂作业，或是学校作业。有时候我们听写，如果我们写错了，我们得重写五或十次。不知道这对你来说多不多，但是对那些孩子得了100是不多。在语文，我们得把字写漂亮一点，这样别人就能读。这是不一个很难的事情去做，对吧？但是，当老师说第一个词，我们写下来。在我写完之前，老师就说下一个词。接着她会说下一个，然后下一个，然后我就跟不上了。所以需要写工整一点和跟上速度是比较难的。
然后我们把我们的纸传到前面，然后老师就混乱一下，然后就给我们回去。我的纸是在一个我很不喜欢的女孩。她给我判得很严格，然后我就不高兴因为我能看得出来那个词语写的是什么。再说了，在那种情况，这是我最好的了。所以我得抄好几遍因为我的作业还不是很好。
在数学课上老师也不想让我们出错。他们想让我们认真检查。有一次我们做八个乘除法竖式。我错了一个，然后我得把所有那八个问题抄十遍。我花了很长的时间才完成的。
有时候当我们不听话的话，老师就会让我们抄一个文章。有一次她叫我们抄一个四页的文章。我不喜欢抄文章。
在暑假和寒假的时候我们也有作业。阿姨说：“先苦后甜。”也就说我们先做那些辛苦的工作，然后我们就可以玩玩，轻松轻松。所以每个假期，我会比别的孩子做作业的时间长因为我觉得我不会完成的，而且我不想当最后。所以当那些孩子玩的时候，我就写我的作业。那些孩子生我的气因为他们觉得我在搞特殊而且命令我要玩不要做作业。现在，可能有一些人会觉得我适应了很刻苦的孩子。但是，如果我像其他孩子一样玩的话而且只在平日（周一至周五）做作业，到时候我是不会完成的。所以我得多勤奋点儿，如果我想跟上其他的孩子，那我没有选择。
在中国一般我都不在乎或想我有多努力。我就一直做到我完成了我应该做的事儿。然后我会玩游戏或看电视。我不怎么在乎我到底累不累。很多人说我要强，但我其实是要跟上别人，而且我不会给别人任何机会小看我。这就是我。我想跟别人一样。
In China school we had to do a lot of classwork and homework. I didn't mind doing class work, but I don't like doing homework.
When it comes to homework, almost always I'm the last one who finished. Sometimes I am jealous they can play, but I have to finish my homework. Why I'm always the last one to finish homework?
My first grade homework is OK, not too much for me. When it I went to second grade, Mrs. Zhang gave us a lot of homework. She makes us copy two or three pages of article, and copy poems four or five times, and words few times.
Actually they were little bit afraid of Mrs. Zhang, and that's little bit true for me. When we do something wrong, she would scold us by use a lot of body language. So, no body would take a chance to mess around with her.
For third grade I have same amount of homework. When I got to fourth grade, the Language Art teacher change and we don't have as much homework. But isn't a very little.
Now let's talk about classwork, or school work. Sometimes we have some dictation, if we get wrong, we would have to rewrite that word five or ten times. Don't know if that sound a lot to you, but not for the kids who got a 100. In Language Art, we have to write the character beautifully so other people can read. That's not a hard thing to do, right? However, when teacher said the first word, we wrote down. Before I finished writing it, the teacher said the next word. Then she would say the next and next and I can't catch up anymore. So writing beautifully and keeping up with the speed is kind of hard.
Then we passed our paper to the front and the teacher mixed them up and gave them back to us. One time, my work ended up with a girl that I really don't like. She graded me very strictly and I was very unhappy because I can read the word and I thought it's beautiful. In fact, that is my best for that situation. So I have to copy over many times because it was good enough.
In math class the teacher don't want us to make mistakes either. They want us to check carefully. One time we did eight long division and multiplication problems. I got one wrong, and I end up writing all eight problems ten times! It took me a long time.
Sometimes when we disobey, the teacher will make us copy an article. One time she make us copy an article with four pages of characters! I don't like to copy the article.
We have homework during summer and winter vacations. The nannies said, "First bitter, then sweet." which means first we do all the hard work, then we will have fun times to rest and play. So every vacations, I will do my homework longer than the others because I think I won't finish and I didn't want to be the last one. So when the kids played, I did my homework. The kids were mad at me because they think I'm being treated special and told me to play instead of doing my homework. Now, maybe some of you think I am a very hard worker. However, if I were like other kids playing and only doing homework on weekdays, I would not finish on time. So I have to work harder. I don't have a choice if I want to catch up with the other students.
In China I usually didn't care or think about how hard I work. I just work until I finished what I was suppose to do. Then I will play or watch TV. I really didn't care if I was tired or not. Many people said I was eager to excel, but what I am really doing is trying to catch up with everybody and I don't let other people take any chance to underestimate me. That's just me. I want be just like everybody.
在中国我们有很多的家庭和课堂作业。对于课堂作业我也不是特不喜欢，但我非常不喜欢做家庭作业。
说到家庭作业，几乎每次都是我最后完成的。有时候我很妒忌他们可以玩，但我得需要完成作业。为什么我老是最后一个人完成作业？
我一年级的作业还行吧，对我来说也不是特多。当我上二年级的时候，张老师给我们留了好多作业。她让我们抄两三页的作文，然后抄诗歌四或五次，还有词语几次。
这对于我来说是很多的作业。一般我到8点或9点才完成。大多次都是我最后完成作业的。我非常不高兴因为别的孩子在玩而我却要完成我的作业。
在上学的早上我老是抱怨语文张老师给我们的作业有多多。然后她就问：“我留的作业多吗？”然后她问其中一个快的学生什么是时候完成的，他们回答7点。他们当然完成得早，他们写字的速度比我要快得多了。
其实他们是有一点点害怕张老师，我也是一样。当我们做错了什么东西，她会老是动手的方法训我们。所以，没有一个人会找机会招惹她。
三年级的时候我有同样多的作业。当我上四年级的时候，我们换了一个语文老师而且她留的作业不怎么多。但也不是很少。
现在说说课堂作业，或是学校作业。有时候我们听写，如果我们写错了，我们得重写五或十次。不知道这对你来说多不多，但是对那些孩子得了100是不多。在语文，我们得把字写漂亮一点，这样别人就能读。这是不一个很难的事情去做，对吧？但是，当老师说第一个词，我们写下来。在我写完之前，老师就说下一个词。接着她会说下一个，然后下一个，然后我就跟不上了。所以需要写工整一点和跟上速度是比较难的。
然后我们把我们的纸传到前面，然后老师就混乱一下，然后就给我们回去。我的纸是在一个我很不喜欢的女孩。她给我判得很严格，然后我就不高兴因为我能看得出来那个词语写的是什么。再说了，在那种情况，这是我最好的了。所以我得抄好几遍因为我的作业还不是很好。
在数学课上老师也不想让我们出错。他们想让我们认真检查。有一次我们做八个乘除法竖式。我错了一个，然后我得把所有那八个问题抄十遍。我花了很长的时间才完成的。
有时候当我们不听话的话，老师就会让我们抄一个文章。有一次她叫我们抄一个四页的文章。我不喜欢抄文章。
在暑假和寒假的时候我们也有作业。阿姨说：“先苦后甜。”也就说我们先做那些辛苦的工作，然后我们就可以玩玩，轻松轻松。所以每个假期，我会比别的孩子做作业的时间长因为我觉得我不会完成的，而且我不想当最后。所以当那些孩子玩的时候，我就写我的作业。那些孩子生我的气因为他们觉得我在搞特殊而且命令我要玩不要做作业。现在，可能有一些人会觉得我适应了很刻苦的孩子。但是，如果我像其他孩子一样玩的话而且只在平日（周一至周五）做作业，到时候我是不会完成的。所以我得多勤奋点儿，如果我想跟上其他的孩子，那我没有选择。
在中国一般我都不在乎或想我有多努力。我就一直做到我完成了我应该做的事儿。然后我会玩游戏或看电视。我不怎么在乎我到底累不累。很多人说我要强，但我其实是要跟上别人，而且我不会给别人任何机会小看我。这就是我。我想跟别人一样。
In China school we had to do a lot of classwork and homework. I didn't mind doing class work, but I don't like doing homework.
When it comes to homework, almost always I'm the last one who finished. Sometimes I am jealous they can play, but I have to finish my homework. Why I'm always the last one to finish homework?
My first grade homework is OK, not too much for me. When it I went to second grade, Mrs. Zhang gave us a lot of homework. She makes us copy two or three pages of article, and copy poems four or five times, and words few times.
It was a lot of homework to me. I usually didn't finished until 8 o'clock or 9 o'clock. Most of the time I finished homework last. I was very unhappy because other kids are playing around and I just have finish my homework.
In the school morning I always complain how much homework the Language Art teacher Mrs. Zhang gave us. Then she would ask, "Did I give you too much homework?" and she ask one of the fast students when they finished. They answer 7 o'clock. Of course they finished early, their writing is much faster than mine.
In the school morning I always complain how much homework the Language Art teacher Mrs. Zhang gave us. Then she would ask, "Did I give you too much homework?" and she ask one of the fast students when they finished. They answer 7 o'clock. Of course they finished early, their writing is much faster than mine.
Actually they were little bit afraid of Mrs. Zhang, and that's little bit true for me. When we do something wrong, she would scold us by use a lot of body language. So, no body would take a chance to mess around with her.
For third grade I have same amount of homework. When I got to fourth grade, the Language Art teacher change and we don't have as much homework. But isn't a very little.
Now let's talk about classwork, or school work. Sometimes we have some dictation, if we get wrong, we would have to rewrite that word five or ten times. Don't know if that sound a lot to you, but not for the kids who got a 100. In Language Art, we have to write the character beautifully so other people can read. That's not a hard thing to do, right? However, when teacher said the first word, we wrote down. Before I finished writing it, the teacher said the next word. Then she would say the next and next and I can't catch up anymore. So writing beautifully and keeping up with the speed is kind of hard.
Then we passed our paper to the front and the teacher mixed them up and gave them back to us. One time, my work ended up with a girl that I really don't like. She graded me very strictly and I was very unhappy because I can read the word and I thought it's beautiful. In fact, that is my best for that situation. So I have to copy over many times because it was good enough.
In math class the teacher don't want us to make mistakes either. They want us to check carefully. One time we did eight long division and multiplication problems. I got one wrong, and I end up writing all eight problems ten times! It took me a long time.
Sometimes when we disobey, the teacher will make us copy an article. One time she make us copy an article with four pages of characters! I don't like to copy the article.
We have homework during summer and winter vacations. The nannies said, "First bitter, then sweet." which means first we do all the hard work, then we will have fun times to rest and play. So every vacations, I will do my homework longer than the others because I think I won't finish and I didn't want to be the last one. So when the kids played, I did my homework. The kids were mad at me because they think I'm being treated special and told me to play instead of doing my homework. Now, maybe some of you think I am a very hard worker. However, if I were like other kids playing and only doing homework on weekdays, I would not finish on time. So I have to work harder. I don't have a choice if I want to catch up with the other students.
In China I usually didn't care or think about how hard I work. I just work until I finished what I was suppose to do. Then I will play or watch TV. I really didn't care if I was tired or not. Many people said I was eager to excel, but what I am really doing is trying to catch up with everybody and I don't let other people take any chance to underestimate me. That's just me. I want be just like everybody.
Sunday, November 16, 2014
Popular Kid
有名的孩子
在清河一小，对于我的年级来说，我是一个很出名的孩子。几乎所有跟我一样年级的人都知道我。但是，当一个很有名的孩子的感觉不是老是特好。
在学校，大多数的老师都挺喜欢我，只有我二三年级的（张）老师不喜欢我。但是，所有的孩子都讨厌我，很多。或许有些人只讨厌我一点点。
当我去厕所或是在走廊的时候，那些小孩很快就会认出来是我，然后就说我坏话，比如他们说我一班的大傻子，或是“哎，她是孤儿。”或说我的残疾。我知道他们在说我。我很不高兴。为什么她们老得说什么？他们就不能假装我不在，这样大家都高兴？我觉得他们应该闭上他们的嘴，舍得伤了别人的心。
在中国我老在想，是什么使他们那么看不起我？我又不是一个特凶的人。我着他还是惹他们？我真的那么坏吗？我这的有那么多的缺点吗？我真希望我能成为他们的朋友，但有时候我就是觉得他们特邪恶。
有时候我会开玩笑，说我是个那么倒霉的人，因为连新同学都讨厌我。
在我的一生，无论我去哪里，我一直是一个很有名的孩子。有时候你出名时是因为你是多么好的人，说是多么坏的人。我两个都经过过。
In Qinghe #1 I was a very popular kid for my grade. Almost all the kids in my grade know me. However, being popular is not always make you feel good.
在清河一小，对于我的年级来说，我是一个很出名的孩子。几乎所有跟我一样年级的人都知道我。但是，当一个很有名的孩子的感觉不是老是特好。
在学校，大多数的老师都挺喜欢我，只有我二三年级的（张）老师不喜欢我。但是，所有的孩子都讨厌我，很多。或许有些人只讨厌我一点点。
当我去厕所或是在走廊的时候，那些小孩很快就会认出来是我，然后就说我坏话，比如他们说我一班的大傻子，或是“哎，她是孤儿。”或说我的残疾。我知道他们在说我。我很不高兴。为什么她们老得说什么？他们就不能假装我不在，这样大家都高兴？我觉得他们应该闭上他们的嘴，舍得伤了别人的心。
在中国我老在想，是什么使他们那么看不起我？我又不是一个特凶的人。我着他还是惹他们？我真的那么坏吗？我这的有那么多的缺点吗？我真希望我能成为他们的朋友，但有时候我就是觉得他们特邪恶。
有时候我会开玩笑，说我是个那么倒霉的人，因为连新同学都讨厌我。
在我的一生，无论我去哪里，我一直是一个很有名的孩子。有时候你出名时是因为你是多么好的人，说是多么坏的人。我两个都经过过。
In Qinghe #1 I was a very popular kid for my grade. Almost all the kids in my grade know me. However, being popular is not always make you feel good.
In school, most of the teachers like me, only my second and third grade teacher (Mrs. Zhang) don't like me. However, all the kids hate me, a lot. Well, maybe some of them only hate me a little.
When I go to bathroom or in the hallway, the kids would immediately recognize me and said negative things about me, such as that I'm the stupid guy in my class, or "Hey, she is a orphan." Or talking about my disability. I know they are talking about me. I was very unhappy. Why they always have to say something? Can't they just pretend I wan't there, so everybody is happy? I think they should keep their mouth shut, so they won't hurt anybody's feeling.
In China I always wonder, what make them to look so down on me? I wasn't really a mean person. What did I ever do to them? Am I really that horrible? Do I really have that many weakness? I wish I can be friend with them, but sometimes I think they are just evil.
In China I always wonder, what make them to look so down on me? I wasn't really a mean person. What did I ever do to them? Am I really that horrible? Do I really have that many weakness? I wish I can be friend with them, but sometimes I think they are just evil.
Sometimes I will joke about how unlucky a person I am, because even the new kids hate me.
I always was a popular kid all my life, no matter where I go. Sometimes you can be popular for how wonderful you are, or how terrible you are. I been through both of them.
I always was a popular kid all my life, no matter where I go. Sometimes you can be popular for how wonderful you are, or how terrible you are. I been through both of them.
Saturday, November 15, 2014
Slow and Useless Person
慢和没用的人
在中国我是称为一个很慢的人，因为我做什么事儿都很慢。每次都是我最后完成作业，穿完衣服，刷完牙和其他的事儿。我不喜欢当最后一个。所有人都生我的气因为很慢。我不知道为什么我很慢。有的孩子特快的孩子。我真希望我能像他们一样快。
我的跑步也很慢。有时候在体育课上我们完接力赛跑。我的队员会问我能不能不跑，这样他们就不是因为我而输掉。我会反对他们，因为我不想只站在哪儿看的他们那么有乐趣。我也想有乐趣。我会做我最好的。正如你所猜的，哪个队有我，那个队就是“倒霉”队。每次我的队都是输了，同学们会说这全都是我的错，如果我没参加的话，他们可能就会赢了。这是事实。但是，我还是反对当他们问我能不跑吗，这是我的性格。如果你觉得我不能做什么东西，然后问我能不能不做，当你让别人做的时候，我会马上说不。我不管别人说什么，如果遇到我能不能做事的问题，他们没有权力控制我。我可以自己决定。
在学校我不是一个很有帮助的人，但我想帮助。老师会向别的学生问帮助，但好像从来都没问我。有时候我会问我能不能帮助，有时候即使他们不叫我去帮助，我还是会帮助的（但也就一次两次）。在学校我们也干了活，老师会决定那个组会做值日。他们让我干活了，但只让我做简单的活，从来就没让我做“难”的活。我真希望他们能让我做“难”的活，但我也不是特不高兴，最起码他们让我干活了。
在清河一小我有三个语文老师，一年级一个，二三年级一个，四年级一个。其中的两个老师说我没用和不值得（不是一年级的老师）。又一次在语文课我在读书，但由于某些原因，我读不了，就像有时又你读不了因为你有坏的一点，或是你的舌头特缠。我四年级的语文老师生气了然后说：“坐下，这没用，连这个都不能读。”先开始我笑了因为其他所有的同学笑了，一般当别人笑的时候，我不能帮助（控制我自己不笑）。但是，后来我很伤心，我差一点哭了因为她说的话。但是她说的是对的。有一次在二年级还是三年级，（我也忘了）我得了一个很不好的成绩。我的语文老师说白吃了。我哭了因为她说的太生硬了，我不能再接受了，但她说对了。
说到没用和慢，大多的问题是在体育。在我班上我就像一个大石头，连累了大家。体育老师又一次试得停止。但我也不是特高兴对他们的反应。
有时候当我上床的时候，我会哭一点点因为我很没有。现在我回想了一下，如果我不在人间的话，我的同学会有少一点问题。其他人也能一样（像我同学）。
In China I'm consider a very slow person, because everything I did are very slow. Every times I always the last one who finish homework, getting dress, brush teeth and other. I don't like when I the last one. Everybody get mad at me because I am so slow. I don't know why I'm so slow. Some of other kids are very fast kids. I wish I could be as fast as them.
My running is very slow too. Sometimes in PE class we will play relay running. My teammate will ask me not to run, so they don't have to loose to other team just because of me. I will oppose with them because I don't want to just stand and watch them having fun. I want to have fun too. I will try my best. As you guess, which team I'm on, which team is the "unlucky" team. Every times my team loose, the students will say it is all my false, if I didn't participate, they could be wining. Which it was true. However, I still say no to them when they ask me to not run, that's parts of my personality. If you say something that you think I could do it while you let other people do it, I will say no immediately. I don't care what people say, they have no control over me when it come to if I can do things or not. I can decide myself.
In school I wasn't very helpful person, but I want to help. The teachers will ask other students to help, but almost never ask me. Sometimes I will ask to help them, and sometimes I will help anyway(but it only once or twice). We also do chores at school, the teachers will decide which group to do the chores. They did let me do chores, but only easy chore, never let me to the "hard" chores. I wish they could let me the "hard" chores, but I wasn't very unhappy since they at least give me some chores to do.
I had three Language Art teachers in Qinghe #1, one for first grade, one for second and third, one for fourth. Two of them say I was useless or not worthy(not the first grade teacher). One times I was reading in Language Art in fourth grade, but for some reason I can't read like sometimes if you can't read because you had a bad day or your tongue get twist it. My fourth grade Chinese teacher got mad and said, "OK, sit down, so useless, can't even read this." At first I laugh because all the other classmate laugh, usually when people laugh, I can't help it. However, then I got very sad that I almost cry it because what the Language Art teacher said. Although what she said it true. One times I got really bad grade in language in second or third, I forget. My language teacher said it was a waste to let me eat food. I cry because what she said was so harsh that I couldn't take it anymore, but she is right.
Talking about Useless and slow, the most problem is in PE. In my class I'm like a big heavy rock that slow everyone. The PE teacher did try to stop one times. Still, I was very unhappy to what the students respond.
Sometimes when I'm in bed I will cry little because I am so useless. Now I'm thinking back, if I wasn't living on the world, my classmate will have less problem. Maybe for other people too.
在中国我是称为一个很慢的人，因为我做什么事儿都很慢。每次都是我最后完成作业，穿完衣服，刷完牙和其他的事儿。我不喜欢当最后一个。所有人都生我的气因为很慢。我不知道为什么我很慢。有的孩子特快的孩子。我真希望我能像他们一样快。
我的跑步也很慢。有时候在体育课上我们完接力赛跑。我的队员会问我能不能不跑，这样他们就不是因为我而输掉。我会反对他们，因为我不想只站在哪儿看的他们那么有乐趣。我也想有乐趣。我会做我最好的。正如你所猜的，哪个队有我，那个队就是“倒霉”队。每次我的队都是输了，同学们会说这全都是我的错，如果我没参加的话，他们可能就会赢了。这是事实。但是，我还是反对当他们问我能不跑吗，这是我的性格。如果你觉得我不能做什么东西，然后问我能不能不做，当你让别人做的时候，我会马上说不。我不管别人说什么，如果遇到我能不能做事的问题，他们没有权力控制我。我可以自己决定。
在学校我不是一个很有帮助的人，但我想帮助。老师会向别的学生问帮助，但好像从来都没问我。有时候我会问我能不能帮助，有时候即使他们不叫我去帮助，我还是会帮助的（但也就一次两次）。在学校我们也干了活，老师会决定那个组会做值日。他们让我干活了，但只让我做简单的活，从来就没让我做“难”的活。我真希望他们能让我做“难”的活，但我也不是特不高兴，最起码他们让我干活了。
在清河一小我有三个语文老师，一年级一个，二三年级一个，四年级一个。其中的两个老师说我没用和不值得（不是一年级的老师）。又一次在语文课我在读书，但由于某些原因，我读不了，就像有时又你读不了因为你有坏的一点，或是你的舌头特缠。我四年级的语文老师生气了然后说：“坐下，这没用，连这个都不能读。”先开始我笑了因为其他所有的同学笑了，一般当别人笑的时候，我不能帮助（控制我自己不笑）。但是，后来我很伤心，我差一点哭了因为她说的话。但是她说的是对的。有一次在二年级还是三年级，（我也忘了）我得了一个很不好的成绩。我的语文老师说白吃了。我哭了因为她说的太生硬了，我不能再接受了，但她说对了。
说到没用和慢，大多的问题是在体育。在我班上我就像一个大石头，连累了大家。体育老师又一次试得停止。但我也不是特高兴对他们的反应。
有时候当我上床的时候，我会哭一点点因为我很没有。现在我回想了一下，如果我不在人间的话，我的同学会有少一点问题。其他人也能一样（像我同学）。
In China I'm consider a very slow person, because everything I did are very slow. Every times I always the last one who finish homework, getting dress, brush teeth and other. I don't like when I the last one. Everybody get mad at me because I am so slow. I don't know why I'm so slow. Some of other kids are very fast kids. I wish I could be as fast as them.
My running is very slow too. Sometimes in PE class we will play relay running. My teammate will ask me not to run, so they don't have to loose to other team just because of me. I will oppose with them because I don't want to just stand and watch them having fun. I want to have fun too. I will try my best. As you guess, which team I'm on, which team is the "unlucky" team. Every times my team loose, the students will say it is all my false, if I didn't participate, they could be wining. Which it was true. However, I still say no to them when they ask me to not run, that's parts of my personality. If you say something that you think I could do it while you let other people do it, I will say no immediately. I don't care what people say, they have no control over me when it come to if I can do things or not. I can decide myself.
In school I wasn't very helpful person, but I want to help. The teachers will ask other students to help, but almost never ask me. Sometimes I will ask to help them, and sometimes I will help anyway(but it only once or twice). We also do chores at school, the teachers will decide which group to do the chores. They did let me do chores, but only easy chore, never let me to the "hard" chores. I wish they could let me the "hard" chores, but I wasn't very unhappy since they at least give me some chores to do.
I had three Language Art teachers in Qinghe #1, one for first grade, one for second and third, one for fourth. Two of them say I was useless or not worthy(not the first grade teacher). One times I was reading in Language Art in fourth grade, but for some reason I can't read like sometimes if you can't read because you had a bad day or your tongue get twist it. My fourth grade Chinese teacher got mad and said, "OK, sit down, so useless, can't even read this." At first I laugh because all the other classmate laugh, usually when people laugh, I can't help it. However, then I got very sad that I almost cry it because what the Language Art teacher said. Although what she said it true. One times I got really bad grade in language in second or third, I forget. My language teacher said it was a waste to let me eat food. I cry because what she said was so harsh that I couldn't take it anymore, but she is right.
Talking about Useless and slow, the most problem is in PE. In my class I'm like a big heavy rock that slow everyone. The PE teacher did try to stop one times. Still, I was very unhappy to what the students respond.
Sometimes when I'm in bed I will cry little because I am so useless. Now I'm thinking back, if I wasn't living on the world, my classmate will have less problem. Maybe for other people too.
Monday, November 10, 2014
My Best Friend
我最好的朋友
当我上一年级的时候，那儿有两个女孩刚刚来到了福利院。一个很瘦的女孩叫马伟波。另一个女孩叫葛亚超。葛亚超是一个很甜很听话的女孩。我很喜欢她然后我们很快就成为了知心朋友。
在福利院我有很多的朋友。几乎我知道的女孩都成为了我的朋友而且我们开心。我没有跟男孩交朋友。有的男孩有一点坏。所以我不怎么喜欢他们。
我知心朋友和我不怎么吵架。她很甜而且我们很容易交往。有时候她太甜了。当我们从学校回到福利院的时候，阿姨会检查我们的水瓶是不是空的。如果不是空的话，然后我们得和剩下的水，然后再和多点！有一次她的不是空的所以她得喝水。可是她的水瓶不是空的是因为她重新灌了。但是她接受了惩罚而且什么都没说。如果我是她的话，我会说不公平而且会解释故事。我羡慕她因为她的心很软！
葛亚超的心不是很软当她看到别人被欺负。她会为他们站起来，但从来不为她自己。我真希望我能成为那样的人。
When I was in first grade, there were two new girls who just moved to the orphanage. One girl is very skinny and her name is Ma Weibo. The other girl is Ge Yachao. Ge Yachao is very sweet and well behaved girl. I liked her very much and soon we became best friends.
In the orphanage I had a lot of friends. Almost every girl I knew became my friend and I was very happy. I didn't make friends with the boys. Some of the boys were a little bit mean. So I don't like them as much.
My best friend and I usually didn't fight. She was very sweet so we are very easy going. Sometimes she was too sweet. When we came to orphanage from school, and the nanny would check if our water bottle was empty or not. If it was not empty, then we had to drink the rest of the water bottle and more! One time hers wasn't empty so she had to drink the water. However, her bottle wasn't empty because she refilled it! However, she accepted the punishment and said nothing. If I was her, I would have said it's not fair and explained the story. I admire her because her heart is so soft!
Ge Yachao isn't soft heart when she saw people being bullied, she would stand up for them, but never for herself. I wish I can be that person.
当我上一年级的时候，那儿有两个女孩刚刚来到了福利院。一个很瘦的女孩叫马伟波。另一个女孩叫葛亚超。葛亚超是一个很甜很听话的女孩。我很喜欢她然后我们很快就成为了知心朋友。
在福利院我有很多的朋友。几乎我知道的女孩都成为了我的朋友而且我们开心。我没有跟男孩交朋友。有的男孩有一点坏。所以我不怎么喜欢他们。
我知心朋友和我不怎么吵架。她很甜而且我们很容易交往。有时候她太甜了。当我们从学校回到福利院的时候，阿姨会检查我们的水瓶是不是空的。如果不是空的话，然后我们得和剩下的水，然后再和多点！有一次她的不是空的所以她得喝水。可是她的水瓶不是空的是因为她重新灌了。但是她接受了惩罚而且什么都没说。如果我是她的话，我会说不公平而且会解释故事。我羡慕她因为她的心很软！
葛亚超的心不是很软当她看到别人被欺负。她会为他们站起来，但从来不为她自己。我真希望我能成为那样的人。
When I was in first grade, there were two new girls who just moved to the orphanage. One girl is very skinny and her name is Ma Weibo. The other girl is Ge Yachao. Ge Yachao is very sweet and well behaved girl. I liked her very much and soon we became best friends.
In the orphanage I had a lot of friends. Almost every girl I knew became my friend and I was very happy. I didn't make friends with the boys. Some of the boys were a little bit mean. So I don't like them as much.
My best friend and I usually didn't fight. She was very sweet so we are very easy going. Sometimes she was too sweet. When we came to orphanage from school, and the nanny would check if our water bottle was empty or not. If it was not empty, then we had to drink the rest of the water bottle and more! One time hers wasn't empty so she had to drink the water. However, her bottle wasn't empty because she refilled it! However, she accepted the punishment and said nothing. If I was her, I would have said it's not fair and explained the story. I admire her because her heart is so soft!
Ge Yachao isn't soft heart when she saw people being bullied, she would stand up for them, but never for herself. I wish I can be that person.
Monday, November 3, 2014
Qinghe #1
清河一小
2008年我在清河一小又重新上一年级（福利院外面的公共学校）。当我上学的时候，我很兴奋。我是一个好学生。在课堂上我积极举手发言。在一年级的期中考试我的数学，语文和英语都是第一名。不过有一个同学不同意。英语和数学我得了100，语文99。韩博轩（同学）说他语文得了100，但我也不怎么确定谁的分数是最高的。当我的分数是全班第一，很多同学都很羡慕我。我很高兴。所有的老师都很喜欢我。
随着时间的推移我的同学就开始不公平的对待我。我也不知道是什么原因。所有同学都不想跟我交朋友而且他们觉得我很脏很臭。我非常伤心因为他们不想跟我玩。我真希望我能跟他们交朋友。所有我就试了再试，但他们就想让我滚开因为我“很脏”。女孩比男孩要更要嫌弃我。那些女生就想是个公主然而我是一个很丑的人，所以她们不向碰我，就连我的东西他们也不想碰。最后我不耐烦了然后就不再试着跟他们交朋友了，因为他们老是那样对待我。我讨厌当他们让我滚的时候。我不知道我为什么那么脏还有那么丑。我真希望我是一个很干净的人，这样我班同学就会对我很好。但是，时间过去了以后我也不怎么在乎了因为他们就是特坏！就连我去则所的时候，那些女生都欺负我。她们推我因为她们不想让我在那儿。有一次一个女孩替我跟她们说了话而且她不在我班，后来我们就成为了很友好的朋友。她的名字是曹溪娟，那时侯在学校她是我唯一的朋友！那时候所有人都看不起我，我没有想过有人羡慕我而且我也不觉得以后会有人羡慕我，因为我很脏很臭而且又是个残疾人。我不喜欢别人把我当成残疾人而且我也从没有想过我自己是个残疾人。
我在我的同学下面一个非常糟糕的经历，但我的老师们都很喜欢我，尤其是我的体育赵老师。但我不怎么喜欢他因为他老抱我，尤其是男的。我不喜欢我不怎么知道的人给我拥抱。不过我现在习惯了因为在家里我们老是给别人拥抱。赵老师对我很好但有时候也有一点偏心。再体育课别的同学做的事我不用做。后来我问了问我能不能跟他们一起做。如果别人能做的事我就想做，这是我的个性。我的班主任将老师也挺喜欢我的。她挺关心我的。我挺喜欢她的。
一年级的生活一般都是很难过因为好多同学都欺负我。我不懂为什么他们只欺负我因为我并不是唯一的孤儿。（妈妈的话：其他福利院的孩子也跟她上学，有的是同一个年级，有的是不同的年级）
I went to first grade again in 2008 at Qinghe #1 (a public primary school outside of the orphanage). I was pretty excited when I started to go to school. I was a good student. I raise my hand a lot in the class. The first test we had the first semester I got highest grade in the class for English, math, and language arts. Although there was one student who disagreed with me. I got 100 for English and math, 99 for language arts. Han Boxuan(classmate) said he got 100 for language arts, but I don't really know exactly who had the highest grade for Language Arts. When I got a high score for the test, most kids look up to me. I was very happy. All the teachers liked me very much.
As the months went by my classmates started to treat me unfairly. I don't know how it started. All my classmates don't want be friends with me and think I'm a dirty and smelly person. I was very sad because nobody would play with me. I wish I can be friends with them, so I tried and tried and tried, but they just wanted me to go away because I'm "so dirty." The girls more so than boys. The girls act like they are princess and I'm a ugly person, so they don't want to touch me - even my stuff! Finally I got tired of being ignored and stopped trying to be their friend, I hated when they wanted me to go away. I don't know why I'm so dirty and smelly. I wish I can be a clean person so my classmate would be nice to me. However, I don't care very much after awhile because they are just so mean! The girls even bullied me in the bathroom, They pushed me because they wanted me to go away. One time one girl spoke up (for me) and she wasn't in my class, later we became very good friends. Her name is Cao Xijuan, at that time she was the only friend I had at school! At that time everybody looked down at me, I didn't think anybody looked up at me and I didn't think anybody will every look up at me because I have disability and dirty and smelly. I don't like people to treat me like a people with disability and I never really think of myself as a person with disability,
I have a very bad experience from my classmates, but my teachers all like me just fine, especially my first grade teacher, Mr. Zhao. However, I am not very comfortable around him because he hug me a lot and I don't like when people hug me, especially male. I don't like when people hug me when I don't really know them. Although now I'm use to it since my family doing hug a lot. Mr.Zhao is very nice to me but sometimes a little bit bias, I don't have to do all the things that other students have to do in PE class. Later I ask to do the same things as the other students. I want to do the things that other people can do, that's part of my personality. My homeroom teacher Ms. Jiang liked me too. She cared about me a lot. I like her.
In first grade I was mostly sad because many students bullied me. I don't understand why they just bullied me because I'm not the only one who was an orphan. (Note from Mom: There were other students from the orphanage attending this school, in this grade and others.)
2008年我在清河一小又重新上一年级（福利院外面的公共学校）。当我上学的时候，我很兴奋。我是一个好学生。在课堂上我积极举手发言。在一年级的期中考试我的数学，语文和英语都是第一名。不过有一个同学不同意。英语和数学我得了100，语文99。韩博轩（同学）说他语文得了100，但我也不怎么确定谁的分数是最高的。当我的分数是全班第一，很多同学都很羡慕我。我很高兴。所有的老师都很喜欢我。
随着时间的推移我的同学就开始不公平的对待我。我也不知道是什么原因。所有同学都不想跟我交朋友而且他们觉得我很脏很臭。我非常伤心因为他们不想跟我玩。我真希望我能跟他们交朋友。所有我就试了再试，但他们就想让我滚开因为我“很脏”。女孩比男孩要更要嫌弃我。那些女生就想是个公主然而我是一个很丑的人，所以她们不向碰我，就连我的东西他们也不想碰。最后我不耐烦了然后就不再试着跟他们交朋友了，因为他们老是那样对待我。我讨厌当他们让我滚的时候。我不知道我为什么那么脏还有那么丑。我真希望我是一个很干净的人，这样我班同学就会对我很好。但是，时间过去了以后我也不怎么在乎了因为他们就是特坏！就连我去则所的时候，那些女生都欺负我。她们推我因为她们不想让我在那儿。有一次一个女孩替我跟她们说了话而且她不在我班，后来我们就成为了很友好的朋友。她的名字是曹溪娟，那时侯在学校她是我唯一的朋友！那时候所有人都看不起我，我没有想过有人羡慕我而且我也不觉得以后会有人羡慕我，因为我很脏很臭而且又是个残疾人。我不喜欢别人把我当成残疾人而且我也从没有想过我自己是个残疾人。
我在我的同学下面一个非常糟糕的经历，但我的老师们都很喜欢我，尤其是我的体育赵老师。但我不怎么喜欢他因为他老抱我，尤其是男的。我不喜欢我不怎么知道的人给我拥抱。不过我现在习惯了因为在家里我们老是给别人拥抱。赵老师对我很好但有时候也有一点偏心。再体育课别的同学做的事我不用做。后来我问了问我能不能跟他们一起做。如果别人能做的事我就想做，这是我的个性。我的班主任将老师也挺喜欢我的。她挺关心我的。我挺喜欢她的。
一年级的生活一般都是很难过因为好多同学都欺负我。我不懂为什么他们只欺负我因为我并不是唯一的孤儿。（妈妈的话：其他福利院的孩子也跟她上学，有的是同一个年级，有的是不同的年级）
I went to first grade again in 2008 at Qinghe #1 (a public primary school outside of the orphanage). I was pretty excited when I started to go to school. I was a good student. I raise my hand a lot in the class. The first test we had the first semester I got highest grade in the class for English, math, and language arts. Although there was one student who disagreed with me. I got 100 for English and math, 99 for language arts. Han Boxuan(classmate) said he got 100 for language arts, but I don't really know exactly who had the highest grade for Language Arts. When I got a high score for the test, most kids look up to me. I was very happy. All the teachers liked me very much.
As the months went by my classmates started to treat me unfairly. I don't know how it started. All my classmates don't want be friends with me and think I'm a dirty and smelly person. I was very sad because nobody would play with me. I wish I can be friends with them, so I tried and tried and tried, but they just wanted me to go away because I'm "so dirty." The girls more so than boys. The girls act like they are princess and I'm a ugly person, so they don't want to touch me - even my stuff! Finally I got tired of being ignored and stopped trying to be their friend, I hated when they wanted me to go away. I don't know why I'm so dirty and smelly. I wish I can be a clean person so my classmate would be nice to me. However, I don't care very much after awhile because they are just so mean! The girls even bullied me in the bathroom, They pushed me because they wanted me to go away. One time one girl spoke up (for me) and she wasn't in my class, later we became very good friends. Her name is Cao Xijuan, at that time she was the only friend I had at school! At that time everybody looked down at me, I didn't think anybody looked up at me and I didn't think anybody will every look up at me because I have disability and dirty and smelly. I don't like people to treat me like a people with disability and I never really think of myself as a person with disability,
I have a very bad experience from my classmates, but my teachers all like me just fine, especially my first grade teacher, Mr. Zhao. However, I am not very comfortable around him because he hug me a lot and I don't like when people hug me, especially male. I don't like when people hug me when I don't really know them. Although now I'm use to it since my family doing hug a lot. Mr.Zhao is very nice to me but sometimes a little bit bias, I don't have to do all the things that other students have to do in PE class. Later I ask to do the same things as the other students. I want to do the things that other people can do, that's part of my personality. My homeroom teacher Ms. Jiang liked me too. She cared about me a lot. I like her.
In first grade I was mostly sad because many students bullied me. I don't understand why they just bullied me because I'm not the only one who was an orphan. (Note from Mom: There were other students from the orphanage attending this school, in this grade and others.)
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